SVSU
First year of college = accomplished.
I'm home. I don't want to be home. I love these people, but it's getting old. It's time to move on. I don't know if i'll be back in LP next summer or not. I've grown up and moved on. This city really has nothing for me anymore.
Freshman year was amazing beyond words. I can not describe to you the people i met that have influenced me so much. I gained best friends that i know will be in my life for a very long time.
College taught me more independence than i thought it would. I feel like i could move to Norway or somewhere right now and be perfectly fine by myself. I love the feeling.
I love the amazing weekends and moments that i had at Saginaw. There are way too many laughs to count.
I miss them already, everyone, the environment. I miss awkward moments the night after an eventful weekend. Haha. I'm going to miss RFoc talks and running either up or down 5 steps and my best friends being right there. I'm going to miss just barging into the living rooms and hanging out. I'm going to miss waking up on someone else's couch or bed because i didn't want to walk up a few steps to my bed. Haha.
I am truly blessed to have had the opportunity to go away to school. It taught me more than i could ever expect, and was a blast in the mean time.
I am counting down the months til i see everyone's gorgeous faces again. Next year will be bigger and better, if it's possible ;)
As for those 2 boys that i have to decide between. You have:
Number 1) : Who hurt me more than i would like to remember. I cried in our bathroom stall at 4 in the morning because of him. I thought he hated me for 3 months. And then these last 2 weeks he shows back up into my life being the old "him" again. WTF. We are now 2 and a half hours away and we didn't get to say goodbye because he had to get on a stupid track bus while i was in the cafeteria. As much as I should drop him out of my life and as much as he says he "doesn't do attachments" there is just something that keeps me there. John, the bff, told me it doesn't matter if someone has hurt you because everyone will hurt you at one point in time. What matters is how you let them affect you, how deeply and to heart you take the cut.
Number 2): One of the nicest guys ever. I just met him about 3 weeks ago. Kinda dumb at times, but that's why people love him. He would definitely treat me a lot better than Number 1, and he lives in Dexter which is a lot closer. Everyone says to give him a chance, but how ironic that he came into my life when Number 1 decides to be nice to me again? Hmm....And i love when we are all in the same room together...NOT. They don't know about each other but other people do, and they know it's hard. I'll talk to one, then jump to the next because i don't know how else to handle the situation.
Now i have 4 months without them. :(
Advice?
I'm home. I don't want to be home. I love these people, but it's getting old. It's time to move on. I don't know if i'll be back in LP next summer or not. I've grown up and moved on. This city really has nothing for me anymore.
Freshman year was amazing beyond words. I can not describe to you the people i met that have influenced me so much. I gained best friends that i know will be in my life for a very long time.
College taught me more independence than i thought it would. I feel like i could move to Norway or somewhere right now and be perfectly fine by myself. I love the feeling.
I love the amazing weekends and moments that i had at Saginaw. There are way too many laughs to count.
I miss them already, everyone, the environment. I miss awkward moments the night after an eventful weekend. Haha. I'm going to miss RFoc talks and running either up or down 5 steps and my best friends being right there. I'm going to miss just barging into the living rooms and hanging out. I'm going to miss waking up on someone else's couch or bed because i didn't want to walk up a few steps to my bed. Haha.
I am truly blessed to have had the opportunity to go away to school. It taught me more than i could ever expect, and was a blast in the mean time.
I am counting down the months til i see everyone's gorgeous faces again. Next year will be bigger and better, if it's possible ;)
As for those 2 boys that i have to decide between. You have:
Number 1) : Who hurt me more than i would like to remember. I cried in our bathroom stall at 4 in the morning because of him. I thought he hated me for 3 months. And then these last 2 weeks he shows back up into my life being the old "him" again. WTF. We are now 2 and a half hours away and we didn't get to say goodbye because he had to get on a stupid track bus while i was in the cafeteria. As much as I should drop him out of my life and as much as he says he "doesn't do attachments" there is just something that keeps me there. John, the bff, told me it doesn't matter if someone has hurt you because everyone will hurt you at one point in time. What matters is how you let them affect you, how deeply and to heart you take the cut.
Number 2): One of the nicest guys ever. I just met him about 3 weeks ago. Kinda dumb at times, but that's why people love him. He would definitely treat me a lot better than Number 1, and he lives in Dexter which is a lot closer. Everyone says to give him a chance, but how ironic that he came into my life when Number 1 decides to be nice to me again? Hmm....And i love when we are all in the same room together...NOT. They don't know about each other but other people do, and they know it's hard. I'll talk to one, then jump to the next because i don't know how else to handle the situation.
Now i have 4 months without them. :(
Advice?