Finally
So I finally found a therapist and I'm starting a 13 week program next week. It's not cheap, but it is necessary. I need to figure out myself out. How to deal with myself and get tools to continue the work on my own for the future. I want to be good. I want to love myself completely... unconditionally.
I'm really happy most days. Patrick is the sweetest guy. I love being around him. I just can't get enough of him and I don't want to hold back. I am holding back because I still need to work on myself.
Everything about him is wonderful. I feel like we're long lost souls. We've only known each other for 2 weeks but it feels like our whole lives. I'm scared to jump into anything, but no one has treated me this well or loved me like this since Sean. It's very similar to that in many ways.
He's so smart, so talented, so gifted. It's kind of ridiculous. I feel so inadequate, but that's just me being silly.
I'm excited to go back to the bay area, but I'm also kinda stressing over it. There's a lot that I'm going to have to deal with and I really don't want to. Meh.