Wind like words blows cold through me...
I know that life is presenting opportunities for me to grow. I know there are so many things that I need to catch up with in order for me to live this moment forward. So, many things... Sometimes I just get so overwhelmed with things. I know I'm thinking of it as a whole ball of wax instead of the little pellets in a pile I know it is. One pellet at a time. Though I tell myself these things, I am still stuck in inactive mode. I have not found my true motivation yet. I still feel that being proud of my own accomplishments is not enough. I don't think there is anyone around that truly knows me well enough to even recognize an accomplishment of my personal growth. There are so many things I know to be true but cannot seem to apply them to my life. I don't get it.