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Is it bad that I feel so out of touch with everyone and everything or is it just that so much is changing so fast that I can't keep track of it all? and for all of you wondering this is probably going to be a really emotional entry. I feel like I'm one of the outcasts that people only talk to when there is no one else there and that really sucks. People who I thought were my best friends have just had one huge turn around. Or is it myself that's had the turn around? Have I really changed that much that I no longer have that much stuff in common with any of my friends anymore. It seems like when ever I'm hanging out with just one of my friends it's all good but once it's myself and 2 other people they are too tied up in conversations that I'm just the 3rd wheel, that I'm only there so they don't feel bad for leaving me behind. Tonight I thought was going to be a lot of fun HSM2 party yes all of my friends some of which I haven't really seen all summer are going to be in the same room at once except there's still all that tension and I'm just the "3rd wheel". Everyone, well almost everyone, is leaving town for college 3 of which I was hanging out with tonight and who knows when I'll see them next. One happens to be one of my best friends and I feel really bad because I wanted to say bye, but all I did was kind of walk out pissed and and just said bye once for everyone but not really. Am I really that much of a changed person, or is it just time for me to find some new best friends. I don't really know but I guess this 1st year of college will make that tough decision for me.