Detour
So wow...it snowed today! That was exciting since Oregon hasn't had "real" snow in a few years! It's nice to have at least one white day this year. hah. Stephanie is supposed to come over tomorrow, so I'm kinda praying for non icy roads! Not much to update about either. Not talking to him until we hang out, tomorrow isn't good for him because he's busy. I'm beginning to wonder if this is a sign that I shouldn't tell him...but I really feel its something I need to do, and not only for me, but for him. So maybe he can understand alittle on why I have to do some stuff. I think he deserves to know..at least have some knowledge on my actions you know? gah, w/e
Anyways, lately I've been working on adding pictures to my gallery. Yes, I finally have one. When I get my layout coded for my blog (Surreal Confusion), I'll post a link to it. For now, I'm hoping to add more pictures before that time. I have about 65 pictures added already! Heh, well...nothing else is really new...my life is the same old but I really have some plans on how I can change that. There's going to be a whole "new" me next year. I'll still be me, but I'm just going to change a few things. One of my new years resolutions is to be more spontaneous and self-confident. We'll see how that works.
So Christmas is in 7 days and that's cool. I've shopped for everyone but my mom...which is pretty ridiculous because she's one of the most important people in my life! (3 most important people in my life = Mom, April and Stephanie!) I have an idea what imma get her, but I need my dad's money to be sent in so I can actually purchase it =D yup. yeah...I don't know what else to put, and I feel like typing. Ok, OH! Um..so since its actually a hassle to post poems on my blog, I figure after my site is up again, when I need to post a new poem, I'll just update it here. Sounds like a brilliant plan huh? lol and I'll post the link on my blog so that everyone (*cough* April) can read it.
So since I'm still wanting to type, imma do a top 10 on fave songs/recommended songs! These aren't really in order:
Top 10
1.) A Beautiful Life - Lindsay Lohan
2.) Black Hole - Lindsay Lohan
3.) Take Me - Hawk Nelson
4.) First time - Hawk Nelson
5.) Ohio is for lovers - Hawthorne Heights
6.) No More Excuses - Kid Courageous
7.) Sympathy - Goo Goo Dolls
8.) Rockstar - Nickelback
9.) Best of me - The Starting Line
10.) It's been awhile - Staind
And now for a poem...its also one you haven't read April! It's free verse and only the end rhymes!
Poem Of The Moment
DON'T FORGET
Close my eyes
wishing for silence
wishing everything would
just go away
all those lies
all those talks
the pretend world we lived in
will not go away
"keep your eyes closed"
I tell myself, maybe the
tears won't come
holding them shut tightly
wishing it never begun
I can't hear myself think
all I hear is your voice
echoing in my head
my mind tells me to move on
but my heart won't let go
it was all a lie, a fake
something I still wish it would be
I have to forget the way
you smile, the sound of your
laugh, the feel of your hand
I must not remember those
walks in the summer and
those drives in October
Pushing for a new beginning
but I don't want to forget you
I don't want to lose you
But I think I already have
I wish one could get what
thy wants, for lately I've
not received what I've longed for
I open my eyes
you are not with me now
and you will never be
there is something I want, that
perhaps you could do
believe me when I say this
because I really do love you:
be happy when things get tough
be joyful when they are good
live life to the fullest
for that's the way it should
hold on to what you have
be brave and be true
stick up for yourself and don't
forget somebody loves you...
So now that this was my longest post ever...COMMENT and tata!
luvs!
Karen
Anyways, lately I've been working on adding pictures to my gallery. Yes, I finally have one. When I get my layout coded for my blog (Surreal Confusion), I'll post a link to it. For now, I'm hoping to add more pictures before that time. I have about 65 pictures added already! Heh, well...nothing else is really new...my life is the same old but I really have some plans on how I can change that. There's going to be a whole "new" me next year. I'll still be me, but I'm just going to change a few things. One of my new years resolutions is to be more spontaneous and self-confident. We'll see how that works.
So Christmas is in 7 days and that's cool. I've shopped for everyone but my mom...which is pretty ridiculous because she's one of the most important people in my life! (3 most important people in my life = Mom, April and Stephanie!) I have an idea what imma get her, but I need my dad's money to be sent in so I can actually purchase it =D yup. yeah...I don't know what else to put, and I feel like typing. Ok, OH! Um..so since its actually a hassle to post poems on my blog, I figure after my site is up again, when I need to post a new poem, I'll just update it here. Sounds like a brilliant plan huh? lol and I'll post the link on my blog so that everyone (*cough* April) can read it.
So since I'm still wanting to type, imma do a top 10 on fave songs/recommended songs! These aren't really in order:
Top 10
1.) A Beautiful Life - Lindsay Lohan
2.) Black Hole - Lindsay Lohan
3.) Take Me - Hawk Nelson
4.) First time - Hawk Nelson
5.) Ohio is for lovers - Hawthorne Heights
6.) No More Excuses - Kid Courageous
7.) Sympathy - Goo Goo Dolls
8.) Rockstar - Nickelback
9.) Best of me - The Starting Line
10.) It's been awhile - Staind
And now for a poem...its also one you haven't read April! It's free verse and only the end rhymes!
Poem Of The Moment
DON'T FORGET
Close my eyes
wishing for silence
wishing everything would
just go away
all those lies
all those talks
the pretend world we lived in
will not go away
"keep your eyes closed"
I tell myself, maybe the
tears won't come
holding them shut tightly
wishing it never begun
I can't hear myself think
all I hear is your voice
echoing in my head
my mind tells me to move on
but my heart won't let go
it was all a lie, a fake
something I still wish it would be
I have to forget the way
you smile, the sound of your
laugh, the feel of your hand
I must not remember those
walks in the summer and
those drives in October
Pushing for a new beginning
but I don't want to forget you
I don't want to lose you
But I think I already have
I wish one could get what
thy wants, for lately I've
not received what I've longed for
I open my eyes
you are not with me now
and you will never be
there is something I want, that
perhaps you could do
believe me when I say this
because I really do love you:
be happy when things get tough
be joyful when they are good
live life to the fullest
for that's the way it should
hold on to what you have
be brave and be true
stick up for yourself and don't
forget somebody loves you...
So now that this was my longest post ever...COMMENT and tata!
luvs!
Karen