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Today has not been good to me, not that, hah, that is anything new. I have not left the house since I came home from Mark's. I'm more miserable now than I've been in fucking ages. I miss "him" and my friends, like Devon, whom I was supposed to spend the day and night with, and just being able to laugh and smile. Freely - without thought of hidden reminders of misery underneath it. Without this drama happening or my bloody HEADACHE.
It's a bit too much right now for me. And I'd do almost anything to make it all go away. I wish I didn't love him. Because I can't tell him that I do. Because it pains me greatly and I cry and cry and cry and yet...nothing has changed in the slightest. Because I'm weak and a total coward...a pushover and people joke about me being far too obsessed. I'm sorry, guys. You don't know how it feels to be in love! Let alone have it stand as one-sided and a fucking SECRET. Sorry. Pft. No. I'm not.
Devon, I sincerely hope you accept my apology...having failed to come to your house and sleep over. We will get some time, just moi et tu ASAP. Cupcakes and Monster and ice cream and everything.
Et Alyssa? Elle est belle, mais seulement quand elle pleure. Elle est Alexx. Alexx est rien.
It's a bit too much right now for me. And I'd do almost anything to make it all go away. I wish I didn't love him. Because I can't tell him that I do. Because it pains me greatly and I cry and cry and cry and yet...nothing has changed in the slightest. Because I'm weak and a total coward...a pushover and people joke about me being far too obsessed. I'm sorry, guys. You don't know how it feels to be in love! Let alone have it stand as one-sided and a fucking SECRET. Sorry. Pft. No. I'm not.
Devon, I sincerely hope you accept my apology...having failed to come to your house and sleep over. We will get some time, just moi et tu ASAP. Cupcakes and Monster and ice cream and everything.
Et Alyssa? Elle est belle, mais seulement quand elle pleure. Elle est Alexx. Alexx est rien.