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My Spring Break really was so fabulous. I had a blast at the beach at the beginning of the week with everyone. It was just really relaxing and so much fun being with such good friends. The trip made me realize some things about myself and what others think about me. It just made me contemplate a whole lot, which really is a good thing. I got some sun, but not enough. I had no tan lines :( But it was still amazing laying out in the sun and being with everyone.
I went to the lake for the end of the week. It was so amazing being there with some of my best friends and the weather was FABULOUS! I got a great tan and I made some great memories. I realized on this trip that for the first time in my whole life, I have a group of friends that I've kept for a very long time. I never thought that I'd ever have that since I moved schools so much. I know it sounds cheesy, but it is so amazing to me that I can say to these people, "hey, remember that time in high school..." and then we all burst into laughter. It makes me happy and it makes me realize that I had a great time in high school and I'm having a great time now. I'm surrounded by great friends who love me, and who will be there forever. I go to a great school and I'm getting a great education. I've loved someone and they've loved me back. Could it get better?
I feel selfish talking about how fabulous my life is and how great Spring Break was. Last night I found out a girl I went to high school with died. She killed herself Saturday night. I wasn't best friends with her or anything but I definitely knew her and she and I were friends in elementary school. It just breaks my heart and scares me so bad that someone's life got bad enough to go that far. It is even more upsetting seeing some of my best friends mourn over this. How do I comfort them? I've lost very very very few people in my life...my grandma when I was 6 and had no clue what was going on, and my grandpa who lived in Michigan and I didn't know very well. How do I relate? What do I say to my friends who are devestated? Death is just such a difficult subject and I am no expert for sure.
This girl that died was an amazing person. I can remember her in high school and one of the things that stood out to me the most is how great of a Christian she was. I can't believe she did this. In elementary school I remember thinking she was absolutely beautiful, and she really was. Why did she do this? I can't understand. Even crazier is the fact that her name came up in conversation at least 3 times this weekend at the lake. One of them was when we passed her lake house and Alexia pointed it out. And she killed herself in that very lake house just hours after we'd passed it. It is almost eerie that even before passing that house we talked about her and none of us really hung out with her on a regular basis at all. Alexia was the closest to her and she was only close to her because they were best friends in 9th grade. Since then they've rarely hung out. So why did we think of her???
Life is weird and unexpected. She is the second person who killed themselves this past week from my high school. It certainly is a wake up call to be better and nicer people.
I went to the lake for the end of the week. It was so amazing being there with some of my best friends and the weather was FABULOUS! I got a great tan and I made some great memories. I realized on this trip that for the first time in my whole life, I have a group of friends that I've kept for a very long time. I never thought that I'd ever have that since I moved schools so much. I know it sounds cheesy, but it is so amazing to me that I can say to these people, "hey, remember that time in high school..." and then we all burst into laughter. It makes me happy and it makes me realize that I had a great time in high school and I'm having a great time now. I'm surrounded by great friends who love me, and who will be there forever. I go to a great school and I'm getting a great education. I've loved someone and they've loved me back. Could it get better?
I feel selfish talking about how fabulous my life is and how great Spring Break was. Last night I found out a girl I went to high school with died. She killed herself Saturday night. I wasn't best friends with her or anything but I definitely knew her and she and I were friends in elementary school. It just breaks my heart and scares me so bad that someone's life got bad enough to go that far. It is even more upsetting seeing some of my best friends mourn over this. How do I comfort them? I've lost very very very few people in my life...my grandma when I was 6 and had no clue what was going on, and my grandpa who lived in Michigan and I didn't know very well. How do I relate? What do I say to my friends who are devestated? Death is just such a difficult subject and I am no expert for sure.
This girl that died was an amazing person. I can remember her in high school and one of the things that stood out to me the most is how great of a Christian she was. I can't believe she did this. In elementary school I remember thinking she was absolutely beautiful, and she really was. Why did she do this? I can't understand. Even crazier is the fact that her name came up in conversation at least 3 times this weekend at the lake. One of them was when we passed her lake house and Alexia pointed it out. And she killed herself in that very lake house just hours after we'd passed it. It is almost eerie that even before passing that house we talked about her and none of us really hung out with her on a regular basis at all. Alexia was the closest to her and she was only close to her because they were best friends in 9th grade. Since then they've rarely hung out. So why did we think of her???
Life is weird and unexpected. She is the second person who killed themselves this past week from my high school. It certainly is a wake up call to be better and nicer people.