Saturday at the condo
Last night I was enjoying my combo of activities so much, even though not intoxicated, that I had difficulty falling asleep, and then worried whether I'd wake up in time to run before having to head downtown for my haircut.
But, it all worked out. Stretched, ran, packed, got downtown in time, etc.
I'm wondering whether my hairdresser of so many years, decades really, I know about his single years, his marriage, his kids, his parents passing away, I'm wondering ... does he lean his body into my personal space while shampooing my hair, while cutting my hair, does he do this because he knows I'm gay and loves the big tip I always give, or does he like leaning his torso into mine, or it is one of those straight boy things, that they simply disregard touching another dude, like why would they care.
Ditto, though, for my massage therapist, who is obviously touching me the entire time, but then he also leans his torso into mine at times, while he's leaning over, working my body, he does a great job and I never get hard and it's nonsexual massage -- it's too painful for sexual LOL, he really digs into my tight muscles and tendons and that fucking hurts, though it feels better afterward.
I also tip my massage therapist a lot. I tip both of them a lot. So am I buying their winkingly incidental touch? Or are straight guys just like that, especially straight guys who are hairdressers or massage therapists. I'm touching you, it's just part of the job. That you feel it is ... sensual ... is not even something I'm noticing.
I dunno.
I love touching men. It doesn't even have to be sexual.
But, it all worked out. Stretched, ran, packed, got downtown in time, etc.
I'm wondering whether my hairdresser of so many years, decades really, I know about his single years, his marriage, his kids, his parents passing away, I'm wondering ... does he lean his body into my personal space while shampooing my hair, while cutting my hair, does he do this because he knows I'm gay and loves the big tip I always give, or does he like leaning his torso into mine, or it is one of those straight boy things, that they simply disregard touching another dude, like why would they care.
Ditto, though, for my massage therapist, who is obviously touching me the entire time, but then he also leans his torso into mine at times, while he's leaning over, working my body, he does a great job and I never get hard and it's nonsexual massage -- it's too painful for sexual LOL, he really digs into my tight muscles and tendons and that fucking hurts, though it feels better afterward.
I also tip my massage therapist a lot. I tip both of them a lot. So am I buying their winkingly incidental touch? Or are straight guys just like that, especially straight guys who are hairdressers or massage therapists. I'm touching you, it's just part of the job. That you feel it is ... sensual ... is not even something I'm noticing.
I dunno.
I love touching men. It doesn't even have to be sexual.