Nov 23, 2019 20:09
You had all these kids, so you were obviously fucking my Mom.
And after she died, you married her best female friend.
So ... you were Obviously Heterosexual.
Why was I taught that women were bad?
Why did you make me gay? And then make my brothers straight? Although my brothers had sex with each other, growing up. I didn't. There was some serious sexuality engineering going on in our family. What was that about? What happened in your family growing up, Dad? I never learned.
And when I researched my family tree stuff, there was never any record of your mother. She disappeared. I never met your mother. She doesn't exist. No stories about her. No records. She passed away before I was born. Before you married my mother.
What happened?
You made me gay because of what happened to your mother, and what happened between you, your brothers, and your father, and I'll never know.
2019,
triggers,
nonfiction,
family