[This dream, so soon after his own and their rather interesting conversation that had followed...leaves an unexpected twist of want curling low in his belly. It had been hard to believe that there really was some other place that had pulled a version of himself there - which shouldn't, really, given the fact that he was here in the first place - and yet here was the truth of it,sprawled across the Hitomi for all to see.
Because the way he looked at Kira, the hungry, predatory, look in his own eyes... the teasing way he taunted the man. All of it. It was him, to a 'T', down to the way he and the rather stunning woman had played with him by whispering like that, just to push him that little bit more off center and watch him squirm.
Another time and another place, Kira-kun...He drew a slow, carefully controlled breath before letting it out, then snapped the Hitomi back into a bracelet and slipped it onto his wrist before reaching over and snagging one of the stirring poles from the rack
( ... )
[Only then did he lean back against the water trough where he sifted the paper and pull up a video. A video he intentionally kept public, for both their sanity.
A small smile curves his lips for all that his bangs shade his eyes slightly.]
...you have interesting dreams, Kira-kun. I'm almost afraid to ask just how well you knew Gau and me at this other place, honestly.
[He hesitates for only a moment before finally addressing that last bit in the man's dream.]
I've seen that man here before, you know. He wasn't here for long, and it was when Kannagara was somehow merged with several dimensions or something, but he was here for a few days. It was a long time ago though, and I haven't seen him since.
[Despite the time that has passed since the dream his cheeks still burn with embarrassment. He's actually remained hidden away in his room for the morning, unwilling to face others after having something so personal aired for all of them to see. Not only that but the broadcast of one of his own dreams has left him forced to face certain facts about this place. The successful attempt at kidou that had previously been unavailable to him, the amount of time that had passed, everyone's persistent belief that this was a separate world, yet another for him to adjust to...
There was too much evidence for him to ignore especially now when that dream reminded him that his two weeks of safety were quickly approaching and... his cheek remained bare.
Would he have asked Raikou? If they were still there, still on Atollo with all the trappings of the Oasis at their disposal... would he have offered himself to his employer, his friend? He couldn't say for certain... but the thought had been there, only strengthened by his conversations with Gau,
( ... )
[Video | Private]pinktintedgamonAugust 28 2011, 16:46:29 UTC
Ah...well he was only here for a short time, honestly. Abarai-san, Kuchiki-san, and Ukitake-san were the ones that were here the longest.
[He pauses then, and finally cuts his own gaze up to eye the man at the other end of the Hitomi, then finally sighs. Because this can't have been an easy transition from a place like that to here. Not at all.
And Kira seems nice - soft-spoken, easily flustered, and sincere - which is why Raikou finally comes to a decision and flicks the Hitomi over to private. More out of respect for Kira's already abused privacy than a need to protect the appearance of his own actions.]
Kira-san.
If you need to talk about that place, or the sentiments behind this dream, it's alright. I'm not offended - to the contrary, I'm quite flattered and no small measure of tempted in a certain way, but this type of lifestyle, the one in both of our dreams, has an underlying truth and the demand to fulfill a need. So if you need help understanding that, then it's alright.
[A beat, before he finishes softly:] I may not be
( ... )
[Video | Private]gilded_despairAugust 30 2011, 06:04:38 UTC
[Kira can’t help smiling ever so faintly. Renji must’ve been so frustrated with the persistent “Abarai-san” from Raikou. It was a shame the redhead was no longer here… but then of course Renji would’ve seen this dream and… he didn’t want to think about his friend’s reaction to something like this.
Thankfully the other man spoke again before he could let his mind get too carried away with that thought. And he was instead left staring guiltily at that that offer. Not in a place where I can act upon those sentiments. Which meant however stressed and uncertain Gau had been on Atollo they were able to work through it and end up together and happy which was precisely what his friends deserved
( ... )
[Video | Private]pinktintedgamonSeptember 1 2011, 11:29:36 UTC
[Now that just earns Kira a bright laugh - because it's kind and considerate, two traits he's beginning to associate as accurate with this man, but not really needed. In many ways, at least to Raikou's mind, Kira is basing the denial not on the Raikou and Gau that they are here, but the ones this man knew in that rather hedonistic place.
This, of course, is the reason he just shakes his head and offers the man an amused smile.]
Trust me when I say that you are not going to endanger anything. I can talk to you about this, without worry, because of multiple reason.
[A beat.]
It's because he trusts me and has faith in me, and knows I've fought too hard and too long to throw it away needlessly, and because he knows that education on a healthy version of this lifestyle is an important factor if someone is curious - otherwise they' might fall prey to unsafe, questionable, or downright harmful acts. So when I say it's fine to talk... I really mean it's okay, Kira-kun. I can still honor the friendship you remember in this way without
( ... )
Re: [Video | Private]gilded_despairSeptember 3 2011, 05:16:52 UTC
[He can’t help it, he laughs at that. Soft and breathy and full of so much bitterness. Maybe it’s because while Raikou had spent his time moving through calming katas the blond had simply laid back in his bed, unable to find sleep for the haunting pressure of chilling blue eyes. He could not close his eyes without feeling the invisible weight of that gaze. And to know that Gin had been here well… it did nothing to quiet the unsettled feeling the dream had left. Certainly there had been desire, heat but those were far less persistent when all was said and done and after such time analyzing the dream he was left feeling more lost than he had in a long time. Yanked out of the world and pushed into another stranger place… only to be uprooted as soon as some semblance of familiarity settled in and thrust into this place
( ... )
[Video | Private]pinktintedgamonSeptember 8 2011, 00:48:47 UTC
I...see.
[What else was he really supposed to say to that? Even without his confirmation, it's obvious that whatever experiences are haunting Kira right now aren't ones that he would have had in a good relationship with a Dominant, something that should have been built on a measure of healthy trust.
Just like that smile is so obviously forced.
So maybe that's why he doesn't hesitate, simply gives the Hitomi a considering look.]
And an offer to meet me somewhere now? How would that be received? You could come down to the shop and pick out some paper for that journal before we go to lunch or something.
[Video | Private]gilded_despairSeptember 10 2011, 04:59:48 UTC
[He's glad that Raikou does not dwell on that, that he moves on smoothly enough and more than that he's glad for the distraction from his own dark thoughts that the other man offers. The smile softens, becomes a little more genuine, and he nods slightly.]
That would be lovely... and perhaps you can tell me a few more details about this place?
[He pauses, giving his friend a sheepish look as he admitted the last part.] And you'll have to pick out a bottle of sake, of course.
[Video | Private]pinktintedgamonSeptember 16 2011, 02:04:36 UTC
That, my friend, sounds like a fine idea. Tell you what.
[Glancing around at his work, Raikou frowns thoughtfully for a moment, then nods abruptly and sends a coordinate to his friend. Because while he doesn’t particularly take joy in the man finally admitting that Raikou is right about the place... he does know that with acceptance comes even more questions.]
Meet me here, I just sent you the location, in about an hour. I should be done for the day by then, so we can go get that bottle and play twenty questions after I bind a journal for you.
Re: [Video | Private]gilded_despairSeptember 17 2011, 03:26:35 UTC
[This time hearing Raikou say “my friend” causes a pang of sadness. But it is a hope as much as a sadness because surely they could regain some of what was lost. The other man already seemed content to speak openly with him and to take steps to rebuild some of the friendship they’d had regardless of whether he remembered it and Kira couldn’t help but think of what Gau had said to him earlier. That people were drawn to each other… and maybe he was right.]
Because the way he looked at Kira, the hungry, predatory, look in his own eyes... the teasing way he taunted the man. All of it. It was him, to a 'T', down to the way he and the rather stunning woman had played with him by whispering like that, just to push him that little bit more off center and watch him squirm.
Another time and another place, Kira-kun...He drew a slow, carefully controlled breath before letting it out, then snapped the Hitomi back into a bracelet and slipped it onto his wrist before reaching over and snagging one of the stirring poles from the rack ( ... )
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A small smile curves his lips for all that his bangs shade his eyes slightly.]
...you have interesting dreams, Kira-kun. I'm almost afraid to ask just how well you knew Gau and me at this other place, honestly.
[He hesitates for only a moment before finally addressing that last bit in the man's dream.]
I've seen that man here before, you know. He wasn't here for long, and it was when Kannagara was somehow merged with several dimensions or something, but he was here for a few days. It was a long time ago though, and I haven't seen him since.
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There was too much evidence for him to ignore especially now when that dream reminded him that his two weeks of safety were quickly approaching and... his cheek remained bare.
Would he have asked Raikou? If they were still there, still on Atollo with all the trappings of the Oasis at their disposal... would he have offered himself to his employer, his friend? He couldn't say for certain... but the thought had been there, only strengthened by his conversations with Gau, ( ... )
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[He pauses then, and finally cuts his own gaze up to eye the man at the other end of the Hitomi, then finally sighs. Because this can't have been an easy transition from a place like that to here. Not at all.
And Kira seems nice - soft-spoken, easily flustered, and sincere - which is why Raikou finally comes to a decision and flicks the Hitomi over to private. More out of respect for Kira's already abused privacy than a need to protect the appearance of his own actions.]
Kira-san.
If you need to talk about that place, or the sentiments behind this dream, it's alright. I'm not offended - to the contrary, I'm quite flattered and no small measure of tempted in a certain way, but this type of lifestyle, the one in both of our dreams, has an underlying truth and the demand to fulfill a need. So if you need help understanding that, then it's alright.
[A beat, before he finishes softly:] I may not be ( ... )
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Thankfully the other man spoke again before he could let his mind get too carried away with that thought. And he was instead left staring guiltily at that that offer. Not in a place where I can act upon those sentiments. Which meant however stressed and uncertain Gau had been on Atollo they were able to work through it and end up together and happy which was precisely what his friends deserved ( ... )
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This, of course, is the reason he just shakes his head and offers the man an amused smile.]
Trust me when I say that you are not going to endanger anything. I can talk to you about this, without worry, because of multiple reason.
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It's because he trusts me and has faith in me, and knows I've fought too hard and too long to throw it away needlessly, and because he knows that education on a healthy version of this lifestyle is an important factor if someone is curious - otherwise they' might fall prey to unsafe, questionable, or downright harmful acts. So when I say it's fine to talk... I really mean it's okay, Kira-kun. I can still honor the friendship you remember in this way without ( ... )
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[What else was he really supposed to say to that? Even without his confirmation, it's obvious that whatever experiences are haunting Kira right now aren't ones that he would have had in a good relationship with a Dominant, something that should have been built on a measure of healthy trust.
Just like that smile is so obviously forced.
So maybe that's why he doesn't hesitate, simply gives the Hitomi a considering look.]
And an offer to meet me somewhere now? How would that be received? You could come down to the shop and pick out some paper for that journal before we go to lunch or something.
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That would be lovely... and perhaps you can tell me a few more details about this place?
[He pauses, giving his friend a sheepish look as he admitted the last part.] And you'll have to pick out a bottle of sake, of course.
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[Glancing around at his work, Raikou frowns thoughtfully for a moment, then nods abruptly and sends a coordinate to his friend. Because while he doesn’t particularly take joy in the man finally admitting that Raikou is right about the place... he does know that with acceptance comes even more questions.]
Meet me here, I just sent you the location, in about an hour. I should be done for the day by then, so we can go get that bottle and play twenty questions after I bind a journal for you.
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That… sounds lovely, Shimizu-san.
Thank you.
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