[Dreamwalking]tenpa_tantrumApril 16 2011, 03:18:48 UTC
[For a second, he'd believed he'd missed that proper moment to step into the dream, hovering just outside it, the bridge of cloud that will bring him there shifting and swirling against nothingness...
And then the scene appears again. Did the man awake and then fall right back into the dream?
How sad, to be trapped in such a thing. How sad to have lived it. How sad... and it should weigh heavily on Gau, but it doesn't, it can't.
It's as if as he steps onto the now-stone bridge, as he makes his way down it, feet bare this time, cool rock underneath his soles, he's both immersed in the horror of it and cushioned from it by his own calmness.
This was a terrible thing to happen to children. But now it is a dream, and he holds out a hand to the dreamer - who he can't see, not like this, not now, in the strange in-between place where the dream is not-quite-formed-again yet.]
[Here, have a blink, because this boy doesn't have the feel of his own magic about him and yet...here he was. And on a stone bridge, no less.
Fai isn't sure if that is an unintentional reminder of the memory or not, but he's not exactly fond of stone.
But for the moment, that's beside the point.
So after a slight hesitation, Fai simply stands at the edge of the bridge and smiles a friendly, pleasant smile, and cant's his head to the side, unmindful of the fact that he's dressed once more in the soft white robe, richly embroidered with blues and silver of Ashura's court.]
Now this is unusual... I've never met a dreamwalker that wasn't a dreamseer before.
Re: [Dreamwalking]tenpa_tantrumApril 21 2011, 23:28:34 UTC
[Well, that's not something he's used to. Someone who has seen a dreamwalker before? Here Gau himself didn't even know that it was possible, until quite recently.
If he had a notebook, he'd be interviewing this man for every detail he could get about the thing. But there's no notebook here, and that's not what he's supposed to be doing now. Experiencing, not just researching. There's a difference.
So Gau gives a little sheepish smile, shakes his head.]
I'm not sure what you mean. I only am allowed to walk in dreams because my goddess has decreed it so... are there many where you are from, that do such things?
I wouldn't say many necessarily...but I've met those across the dimensions that were capable of it easily enough.
[Another smile, small and muted, before he moves over to stand beside the edge of the bridge without moving any closer to the other side. He watches Gau with a thoughtful expression for a moment before simply sighing.]
Your goddess, huh? Mind if I ask why she sees fit to have you walk in my own dreams? It's a bit unexpected.
Re: [Dreamwalking]tenpa_tantrumApril 23 2011, 14:52:27 UTC
That must be strange, to be able to do all the time...
[Gau tilts his head, trying to imagine it. He doesn't think he'd like to be able to do this while having to keep up with the demands of actually living as well. It doesn't seem very restful.]
Yours specifically? I'm not sure. I do know that the overall goal of the thing was to allow me to see from a lot of perspectives. One can do that through the Hitomi, but... it's not quite the same. There's still a certain... safety of being on your side of that screen.
[Leaning on the rail on his forearms, Fai smiled a small little smile and turned his face up, let the breeze tease long bangs across his cheek before he glanced to the side, met Gau's bright green eyes with his own reflective gaze.]
And you're sure you're safe here, from the things that haunt a troubled mind Mister...?
Re: [Dreamwalking]tenpa_tantrumApril 24 2011, 03:53:00 UTC
Gau. My name is Gau. And... I'm pretty sure that I'm safe.
[Gau gives a slight shrug, because it doesn't matter, does it? He can't think why it would matter. What kind of damage...? He's not even sure the body that he's wearing here is real.]
My own mind is pretty troubled, so it doesn't seem as if... it's new to me.
[He glances out toward Fai's dream, then mimics the man's pose, leaning against the bridge as well, a little smile on his lips as he gazes down.]
You'd be surprised, Gau. The mind is a far more fragile place than one would think - especially if one knew how to inflict damage but! I'm sure you're right and these gods are protecting you, hm?
[Here, have a friendly, pleasant smile as he looks over to the image of a paradise even more beautiful than Kannagara itself. Still, though, he makes no move to step closer but it's clear: He will not go over there.
Heaven, or something like it, was not a place for one such as him.
[And now he cants his head to the side, levels his gaze more fully on the young man. His expression is gentle, his tone light as he smiles a friendly little falsely-open smile.]
But what do you suppose your coming to see my painful memories so intimately is supposed to teach you, child?
Re: [Dreamwalking]tenpa_tantrumApril 29 2011, 20:02:42 UTC
I'm not sure.
[There's a pause, and then he continues, quite a bit more hesitantly than before.]
It's so sad... I guess I'm really lucky, to have been born when and where I was, even if things were very hard. Because things like this... I just don't have any way to understand them.
[He looks back, asks very softly.]
Was he - that person who found you - was he good to you?
[Humming softly, Fai lets his smile softened to something a little more real at the question. He nods a bit as he lets the younger, gentler memories of the man in question distance him a bit more from the pain of the dream.
Memories that, despite being held with a warm regard, were even now tainted by the ill-luck brought to his beloved king by his mere presence.
Even so, it was an easy enough answer, because while he might lie about a great many things, the care they’d received from those strong hands was not something he would allow to be questioned, ever.]
He was the first person to show us kindness. He gave us a home and protected us, guided with a patient hand and a soft voice… he was more good than we deserved, and suffers for the effort even now.
Re: [Dreamwalking]tenpa_tantrumMay 3 2011, 14:27:13 UTC
I don't understand.
[Gau says the words quietly, and there's a resignation there, one that he himself is only starting to realize. He's become willing to admit when he doesn't know things, as he grows up, and perhaps that's part of growing up.
In the old days, he might have just blustered through it. But now...]
I don't understand how you could 'not deserve' it. Doesn't everyone deserve someone to be good to them? When my partner took me in, I was older than...
[And his eyes turn back toward the scene, prompting a little shake of the head.]
But even then, I was a child. All children deserve someone to care for them, don't they?
[For all that the words are spoken softly, there is a definite note of finality in his tone and perhaps more frightning was the calm way with which the man regards the boy.
And for a moment, he strongly considers leaving it at that. But if these gods are going to insist on playing these wretched games - or worse, if they hold him on this bridge until he gives this bit of truth...
He likes that idea even less.
And maybe, if they're made to realize the depth of their folly in bringing him here and thwarting his movements towards his ultimate wish - maybe they'll let him leave.
So when he finally speaks, he's not offering a topic for debate - he's merely reciting fact.]
For Yuui, who was born the second twin, there is no repreve. Nor would he want one.
[A beat as he leans back against the rail, hands laced behind his neck and ankles crossed.]You see... had Yuui never been born, then Fai would not only be alive today, but he would quite probably be the Elder Emperor. He would have lived a life as befitting the
( ... )
[Oddly enough, it's Fai that is watching this boy cry tears meant for him with something like a distant compassion. He's cried his tears over this fate of his and he'll continue to do as as time crawls steadily past him, but this boy...
Heaving a weighty sigh, Fai shifts enough to step closer, places a hand comfortingly on Gau's shoulder.]
It's alright, child. Your world is such that, I'd guess, you don't have such fates. But don't think that just because something is unfamiliar or unfathomable to you based on your perceptions, that it's not possible for other worlds in other times.
Because as I said... it was never my actions that garnered such sin. Just by being born, just by being twins born in a world where they're seen as harbingers of catastrophe, just for the sake of existing... that world [he points back towards the dream] Valeria, is a dead world. There is no one living now, millions of lives cut short just because we were born. This is fact, whether you like or accept it or not.
And then the scene appears again. Did the man awake and then fall right back into the dream?
How sad, to be trapped in such a thing. How sad to have lived it. How sad... and it should weigh heavily on Gau, but it doesn't, it can't.
It's as if as he steps onto the now-stone bridge, as he makes his way down it, feet bare this time, cool rock underneath his soles, he's both immersed in the horror of it and cushioned from it by his own calmness.
This was a terrible thing to happen to children. But now it is a dream, and he holds out a hand to the dreamer - who he can't see, not like this, not now, in the strange in-between place where the dream is not-quite-formed-again yet.]
Please, come rest here for a moment.
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[Here, have a blink, because this boy doesn't have the feel of his own magic about him and yet...here he was. And on a stone bridge, no less.
Fai isn't sure if that is an unintentional reminder of the memory or not, but he's not exactly fond of stone.
But for the moment, that's beside the point.
So after a slight hesitation, Fai simply stands at the edge of the bridge and smiles a friendly, pleasant smile, and cant's his head to the side, unmindful of the fact that he's dressed once more in the soft white robe, richly embroidered with blues and silver of Ashura's court.]
Now this is unusual... I've never met a dreamwalker that wasn't a dreamseer before.
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If he had a notebook, he'd be interviewing this man for every detail he could get about the thing. But there's no notebook here, and that's not what he's supposed to be doing now. Experiencing, not just researching. There's a difference.
So Gau gives a little sheepish smile, shakes his head.]
I'm not sure what you mean. I only am allowed to walk in dreams because my goddess has decreed it so... are there many where you are from, that do such things?
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[Another smile, small and muted, before he moves over to stand beside the edge of the bridge without moving any closer to the other side. He watches Gau with a thoughtful expression for a moment before simply sighing.]
Your goddess, huh? Mind if I ask why she sees fit to have you walk in my own dreams? It's a bit unexpected.
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[Gau tilts his head, trying to imagine it. He doesn't think he'd like to be able to do this while having to keep up with the demands of actually living as well. It doesn't seem very restful.]
Yours specifically? I'm not sure. I do know that the overall goal of the thing was to allow me to see from a lot of perspectives. One can do that through the Hitomi, but... it's not quite the same. There's still a certain... safety of being on your side of that screen.
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[Leaning on the rail on his forearms, Fai smiled a small little smile and turned his face up, let the breeze tease long bangs across his cheek before he glanced to the side, met Gau's bright green eyes with his own reflective gaze.]
And you're sure you're safe here, from the things that haunt a troubled mind Mister...?
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[Gau gives a slight shrug, because it doesn't matter, does it? He can't think why it would matter. What kind of damage...? He's not even sure the body that he's wearing here is real.]
My own mind is pretty troubled, so it doesn't seem as if... it's new to me.
[He glances out toward Fai's dream, then mimics the man's pose, leaning against the bridge as well, a little smile on his lips as he gazes down.]
I certainly feel safe enough.
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[Here, have a friendly, pleasant smile as he looks over to the image of a paradise even more beautiful than Kannagara itself. Still, though, he makes no move to step closer but it's clear: He will not go over there.
Heaven, or something like it, was not a place for one such as him.
Instead, he arches a brow and speaks lightly.]
So what brings you to my mind, Gau?
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And yes, now he does feel a little vulnerable. He shifts from one foot to the other, awkwardly, bare feet rasping slightly against tone.]
I'm not really... I just...
[Why? Why this person's mind, and not another? With so many people in the world, there are so many dreams, every night. Who chooses? Why?]
There's something you can teach me.
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[And now he cants his head to the side, levels his gaze more fully on the young man. His expression is gentle, his tone light as he smiles a friendly little falsely-open smile.]
But what do you suppose your coming to see my painful memories so intimately is supposed to teach you, child?
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[There's a pause, and then he continues, quite a bit more hesitantly than before.]
It's so sad... I guess I'm really lucky, to have been born when and where I was, even if things were very hard. Because things like this... I just don't have any way to understand them.
[He looks back, asks very softly.]
Was he - that person who found you - was he good to you?
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Memories that, despite being held with a warm regard, were even now tainted by the ill-luck brought to his beloved king by his mere presence.
Even so, it was an easy enough answer, because while he might lie about a great many things, the care they’d received from those strong hands was not something he would allow to be questioned, ever.]
He was the first person to show us kindness. He gave us a home and protected us, guided with a patient hand and a soft voice… he was more good than we deserved, and suffers for the effort even now.
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[Gau says the words quietly, and there's a resignation there, one that he himself is only starting to realize. He's become willing to admit when he doesn't know things, as he grows up, and perhaps that's part of growing up.
In the old days, he might have just blustered through it. But now...]
I don't understand how you could 'not deserve' it. Doesn't everyone deserve someone to be good to them? When my partner took me in, I was older than...
[And his eyes turn back toward the scene, prompting a little shake of the head.]
But even then, I was a child. All children deserve someone to care for them, don't they?
Reply
[For all that the words are spoken softly, there is a definite note of finality in his tone and perhaps more frightning was the calm way with which the man regards the boy.
And for a moment, he strongly considers leaving it at that. But if these gods are going to insist on playing these wretched games - or worse, if they hold him on this bridge until he gives this bit of truth...
He likes that idea even less.
And maybe, if they're made to realize the depth of their folly in bringing him here and thwarting his movements towards his ultimate wish - maybe they'll let him leave.
So when he finally speaks, he's not offering a topic for debate - he's merely reciting fact.]
For Yuui, who was born the second twin, there is no repreve. Nor would he want one.
[A beat as he leans back against the rail, hands laced behind his neck and ankles crossed.]You see... had Yuui never been born, then Fai would not only be alive today, but he would quite probably be the Elder Emperor. He would have lived a life as befitting the ( ... )
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Heaving a weighty sigh, Fai shifts enough to step closer, places a hand comfortingly on Gau's shoulder.]
It's alright, child. Your world is such that, I'd guess, you don't have such fates. But don't think that just because something is unfamiliar or unfathomable to you based on your perceptions, that it's not possible for other worlds in other times.
Because as I said... it was never my actions that garnered such sin. Just by being born, just by being twins born in a world where they're seen as harbingers of catastrophe, just for the sake of existing... that world [he points back towards the dream] Valeria, is a dead world. There is no one living now, millions of lives cut short just because we were born. This is fact, whether you like or accept it or not.
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