By concentrating on the DNA of a hawk. And then not concentrating on the DNA of my human form for more than two hours. How did you end up so creepy? [Because, really. That voice was giving him goosebumps. And not the good kind.]
Depends on how you define 'world'. Anywhere from 8 to thousands, maybe more.
You are creepy. [The end.] And I'm a freak of nature, designed and manipulated by a god-like thing. Everything about my life, from how I was born, to how I became a hawk, to getting killed, was decided by some bastard that thinks his goals are more important than my life. [He's not bitter. Not at all.]
Then you have your answer. And no, it's not frustrating -- I didn't even realize it had happened until I was already dead. It's infuriating. I don't care that my life put a serious dent in the Yeerks' advancement. I don't care that I followed in my father's footsteps in doing so. I don't care, because my life was terrible. I'm an unwanted piece of trash.
[He's angry, so angry, and it's coming across strong in his tone, even if he's rambling a bit, still out of sorts from slamming into that door so hard he knocked himself out, only to wake up on someone's cutting board.]
Is that what you want to know? That I'm expendable? That I'm not worth anything more than what I can contribute to the cause? That I'm a freak of nature, that no one wants me if I can't kill for them? That I'm useless without wings, without being in the air to guide the rest? What else do you want to know?
[How Mayuri became the focus of all the rage is a little beyond him at this point. Then again, humans could be very irrational with their emotions. No matter. Hatred is nothing new to him either.]
Your anger would be better focused on those that did this to you, not me. I was simply asking what role you played. Clearly you were integral to whatever plan this being had so "unwanted", "useless" and "expendable" are not terms that are generally applied to such a person.
Yeerks. Suffice to say they're extremely unpleasant.
And I'd rather be valued as a person, not a pawn. I was important, but only if I suffered. Only if my life was one hell after another. Only if I was backed into the proper corner and tortured to death. If I were important, then they would have at least tried to spare me from that death.
Then again, it's the same bastard that let my father get eaten alive.
They would not have spared you anything. You said it yourself, you were their pawn. I suppose a kinder person would talk about "everyone having a role to fill" and "importance of sacrifice".
That talk is idiotic.
You were used, most definitely, by someone who had more power than you. [None of this "god" stuff, it just had more power. That's not hard, in comparison with a human.]
[The fact that Mayuri didn't seem to have a problem with what was done to Tobias didn't win him any points.] What do I intend to do? I'm dead, you idiot! There's nothing I can do anymore, except hope that maybe, maybe it was worth it.
Maybe Rachel will get out of all of this alive. Maybe Earth won't be completely overrun before the Andalites show up. Maybe, just maybe, the Yeerks won't succeed. Not that it'll do me any good.
[Mayuri's not here to win points. And why should he take issue? The deed's have already been done.]
Perhaps you are dead in your world but you aren't dead here. You have been given a chance to live without someone calling themselves dictating what you should do. That is what I'm asking about.
[.... he hasn't actually thought of it that way, not really. It's an interesting question, and it takes Tobias a while to think about it before he sends this reply.]
The first thing I want to do is find a way to stop these damn dreams from being shared with everyone. [He didn't care if they continued. He just wanted them to be private.]
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From what I gather from that dream, you started as a boy. Just how did you end up as a bird?
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"Creepy"? [He sounds a little confused.] I'm simply interested in what you are. I would hardly classify that as "creepy".
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You are creepy. [The end.] And I'm a freak of nature, designed and manipulated by a god-like thing. Everything about my life, from how I was born, to how I became a hawk, to getting killed, was decided by some bastard that thinks his goals are more important than my life. [He's not bitter. Not at all.]
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[To each their own. Mayuri's been called much worse. And believe it or not, he can actually sympathize a little with this story.]
Frustrating, isn't it? Your worth decided before you are even aware of yourself. To just what ends did they use you?
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[He's angry, so angry, and it's coming across strong in his tone, even if he's rambling a bit, still out of sorts from slamming into that door so hard he knocked himself out, only to wake up on someone's cutting board.]
Is that what you want to know? That I'm expendable? That I'm not worth anything more than what I can contribute to the cause? That I'm a freak of nature, that no one wants me if I can't kill for them? That I'm useless without wings, without being in the air to guide the rest? What else do you want to know?
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[How Mayuri became the focus of all the rage is a little beyond him at this point. Then again, humans could be very irrational with their emotions. No matter. Hatred is nothing new to him either.]
Your anger would be better focused on those that did this to you, not me. I was simply asking what role you played. Clearly you were integral to whatever plan this being had so "unwanted", "useless" and "expendable" are not terms that are generally applied to such a person.
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And I'd rather be valued as a person, not a pawn. I was important, but only if I suffered. Only if my life was one hell after another. Only if I was backed into the proper corner and tortured to death. If I were important, then they would have at least tried to spare me from that death.
Then again, it's the same bastard that let my father get eaten alive.
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That talk is idiotic.
You were used, most definitely, by someone who had more power than you. [None of this "god" stuff, it just had more power. That's not hard, in comparison with a human.]
What do you intend to do about it?
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Maybe Rachel will get out of all of this alive. Maybe Earth won't be completely overrun before the Andalites show up. Maybe, just maybe, the Yeerks won't succeed. Not that it'll do me any good.
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Perhaps you are dead in your world but you aren't dead here. You have been given a chance to live without someone calling themselves dictating what you should do. That is what I'm asking about.
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The first thing I want to do is find a way to stop these damn dreams from being shared with everyone. [He didn't care if they continued. He just wanted them to be private.]
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[A pause.]
If there was a possibility of such control, though experimental, would you try it?
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This is followed by a short pause.] Why?
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