I'm venting, and if you don't like it. DON'T FUCKING READ IT!
First off, i'd like to tell everyone that I'M NOT A FUCKING CHILD, I CAN MAKE MY OWN FUCKING DECISIONS AND IF YOU DON'T LIKE THEM THEN SO BE IT, I DON'T FUCKING CARE! Second, I think it's fucking bullshit that my family is screwing me over just b/c of my dad, or well ..he isn't my dad anymore so i'll just call him Jim. They all are mad at me b/c I won't forgive and forget, 15 years of my mother fucking life went down the drain because of him, 15 fucking years I was put down by him being called fat, ugly, worthless, a mistake, ect. 15 years I was pushed around and hit, SHOULD I FORGIVE AND FORGET?! I don't fucking think so. And well if the family just can't except me b/c I have my OWN feelings about shit then they can suck my big fucking cock. I don't need them and I CERTAINLY don't need Jim anymore. I have Paul, hes now my dad. Well hopefully soon. Hes been more like a father to me in the past fucking year that i've known him then Jim was my whole life, Paul doesn't yell, hit us, or anything. Him and my mom have NEVER even had a fuckin arguement since they first met! And well as far as im concered I don't need that family, I don't need Jim and I DON'T need them telling me what the fuck to do.
On to a new subject..
I'm sick of all my ''so-called friends'' walking all over me and treating me like shit. I mean these past few days have been hell, do you think anyone has taken a few seconds to type the words "whats wrong?". NO! Not ONE fucking person has. Everytime something is wrong with someone I'M RIGHT THERE! I let them tell me everything thats happening with them and I try to give my best advice and be there for them, b/c well thats just what a fucking good friend does. Obviously I don't have any of those. You guys haven't made a trip to come see me since i've moved out here, you haven't even attempted to call me, or even talk to me on the computer! How do you think that fucking makes me feel? I've opened myself up to everyone and for what? To fucking get stomped all over. Very fucking nice guys, thanks. I guess i'll just have to fuckin keep to myself again for awhile again. Maybe stay off the computer, not call anyone, just not even talk to anyone anymore. Maybe people will actually start to care when they notice i'm not around for them to poor their heart out, maybe they will start to care when I just stop calling. Actually you know what, NO they won't. They didn't care before, why care now right? Fuck you guys, thats all I have left to say now.
I'm done with my venting & if anyone has ANYTHING to say about it you can just fuck off, alright?! B/c these are MY feelings, and I have the right to tell them, even if it means loosing my family and my ''friends''.
On to a new subject..
I'm sick of all my ''so-called friends'' walking all over me and treating me like shit. I mean these past few days have been hell, do you think anyone has taken a few seconds to type the words "whats wrong?". NO! Not ONE fucking person has. Everytime something is wrong with someone I'M RIGHT THERE! I let them tell me everything thats happening with them and I try to give my best advice and be there for them, b/c well thats just what a fucking good friend does. Obviously I don't have any of those. You guys haven't made a trip to come see me since i've moved out here, you haven't even attempted to call me, or even talk to me on the computer! How do you think that fucking makes me feel? I've opened myself up to everyone and for what? To fucking get stomped all over. Very fucking nice guys, thanks. I guess i'll just have to fuckin keep to myself again for awhile again. Maybe stay off the computer, not call anyone, just not even talk to anyone anymore. Maybe people will actually start to care when they notice i'm not around for them to poor their heart out, maybe they will start to care when I just stop calling. Actually you know what, NO they won't. They didn't care before, why care now right? Fuck you guys, thats all I have left to say now.
I'm done with my venting & if anyone has ANYTHING to say about it you can just fuck off, alright?! B/c these are MY feelings, and I have the right to tell them, even if it means loosing my family and my ''friends''.