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what the hell i just found out today i have fatty liver disease!!!
i don't understand how i got that! so much for me thinking my liver ultra sound was nothing but a rule things out sort of thing that i went to with absolutely no worries about.
it's so frustrating i keep coming up with these problems with organs that i have no risk factors for and none of the usual causes apply to me so how come i have them?
i really don't understand!
i have to go on a low fat diet now which means even less food i can eat! just when i finally was eating more foods i have to cut out a big portion of them again! i didn't even think i was having any problems with digesting fats and i was freely eating them so i'd have a higher caloric intake and even the nutritionist was wanting me to eat higher fat foods but now when i see her again i will have to tell her this new info and we will have to work around this new limitation.
i'm just so mad i have all these problems piling up in my body for no reason what so ever.
there must be a reason though and there must be connection of some sort. i don't see why i suddenly have a lot of diseases that are associated with being over 60, high bp, high cholesterol, obesity, alcohol use, nasid use, etc. when i have never had any of those things! (well i was briefly in the obese category in 2018 but that shouldn't have been enough to cause any of this stuff)
i think there were a few other things too idk i'm tired and my brain doesn't work.
it's just really frustrating me when the only reasons given and the only things you can do to help the conditions are things that do not apply to me! So what am I supposed to do? And why do doctors just repeat the same info you find on the internet about these things even when you tell them, well i don't have any of those things to start with so how did i get this and what else can i do about it? and they just give you a blank stare cause they are not good at puzzles or thinking outside the box.
but there has to be a reason right? if i keep coming up with so many different things like that, there must be a connection, there has to be!
but i guess i will never know, i'll just write my frustrations here and move on.
got another 2 days of appointments ahead of me and then i get one full week off!
i don't understand how i got that! so much for me thinking my liver ultra sound was nothing but a rule things out sort of thing that i went to with absolutely no worries about.
it's so frustrating i keep coming up with these problems with organs that i have no risk factors for and none of the usual causes apply to me so how come i have them?
i really don't understand!
i have to go on a low fat diet now which means even less food i can eat! just when i finally was eating more foods i have to cut out a big portion of them again! i didn't even think i was having any problems with digesting fats and i was freely eating them so i'd have a higher caloric intake and even the nutritionist was wanting me to eat higher fat foods but now when i see her again i will have to tell her this new info and we will have to work around this new limitation.
i'm just so mad i have all these problems piling up in my body for no reason what so ever.
there must be a reason though and there must be connection of some sort. i don't see why i suddenly have a lot of diseases that are associated with being over 60, high bp, high cholesterol, obesity, alcohol use, nasid use, etc. when i have never had any of those things! (well i was briefly in the obese category in 2018 but that shouldn't have been enough to cause any of this stuff)
i think there were a few other things too idk i'm tired and my brain doesn't work.
it's just really frustrating me when the only reasons given and the only things you can do to help the conditions are things that do not apply to me! So what am I supposed to do? And why do doctors just repeat the same info you find on the internet about these things even when you tell them, well i don't have any of those things to start with so how did i get this and what else can i do about it? and they just give you a blank stare cause they are not good at puzzles or thinking outside the box.
but there has to be a reason right? if i keep coming up with so many different things like that, there must be a connection, there has to be!
but i guess i will never know, i'll just write my frustrations here and move on.
got another 2 days of appointments ahead of me and then i get one full week off!