our choices are half chances
wow, a lot has happened. my life has drifted onward so far in front of me and i'm just washing myself off from my past. i guess we will all move forwards and leave our pasts to fade away like the memories of our childhood. i'm especially confused these days with my future, its so huge of a task so it kinda scares me off. sometimes i wish i could dwell on my pain in my past so i can become comfortable in my own misery. no change, nothing new, but i know we must all move on and so i am doing just that.
and in these times where no words can match our feelings we merely vent our emotions into our auras and wear our guilt, pain, and tragic circumstances. it is sometimes better to throw this cloak of emotional torture on than to use words that would do no justice.
in these past months i have renewed my love and am in complete joy with her. i would kill for her. i have also lost a great friend, whom i will soon be paying tribute to on an area of my skin. i have decided to take a break from school for awhile. i have two jobs now which pay pretty well. i'm saving money for my cars bodywork and i've made some very progressive attitude changes. i've discovered that everyones situation is different and that becoming a moderatley heavy drinker can have its benefits. want to start reading and painting and sculpting again soon.
in the end we are all memories that fade away, but when we are here we choose for ourselves whether we are fond memories or ill ones.
some lines from blade runner
"the light that burns twice as bright burns half as long"
and
"its too bad she wont live, but then again who does"
-k.kai
and in these times where no words can match our feelings we merely vent our emotions into our auras and wear our guilt, pain, and tragic circumstances. it is sometimes better to throw this cloak of emotional torture on than to use words that would do no justice.
in these past months i have renewed my love and am in complete joy with her. i would kill for her. i have also lost a great friend, whom i will soon be paying tribute to on an area of my skin. i have decided to take a break from school for awhile. i have two jobs now which pay pretty well. i'm saving money for my cars bodywork and i've made some very progressive attitude changes. i've discovered that everyones situation is different and that becoming a moderatley heavy drinker can have its benefits. want to start reading and painting and sculpting again soon.
in the end we are all memories that fade away, but when we are here we choose for ourselves whether we are fond memories or ill ones.
some lines from blade runner
"the light that burns twice as bright burns half as long"
and
"its too bad she wont live, but then again who does"
-k.kai