:: sigh ::
Things have been good, yet insane. Color guard is staying at a happy medium for now...no huge fights have broken out yet, that's always a good thing, especially after the disasters of last year. That is probably my biggest concern about the RFH band that I could live without is all of the drama that exists. I was pretty blind to it my freshman year, but I started noticing it when I was a sophomore and it really sank in last year. I really don't want to cause any more trouble, but I know that if I don't, someone else is going to and the cycle of drama will continue.
I've been thinking about people recently...a lot. I tried to analyze why it is in human nature to be deceptive. The only thing that came to my mind was a quote from Fushigi Yuugi about humans..."alone they are weak, useless. However when they gether into large groups they will quickly cast out those that are weaker than they are, or just the slightest bit different." For the most part, this is true, sad to say. But then there's the people that are amazing in life, and they're always the first to die. I lost a good friend to suicide a couple of years ago. Nobody saw it coming, all it took was a petty fight with his father and he blew his brains out. While reflecting on this, I became slightly angry that I didn't do anything about it. If only he could have seen how many people loved him...his death shook people's lives. His dad could not return to the police force because carrying a gun became too much for him. His girlfriend was absolutely devastated. His family separated, his parents divorced and his sister is the middle of a custody battle. All from one person who tried so hard to keep others happy. It's very unfair to me that of all the people in the world, he had to die. R.I.P., dear friend, R.I.P.
I got into a debate with my mom tonight about abortions and proved to myself that I am incredibly pro-life. She seemed angry about my views and kept staring at me as if I was an inconsiderate piece of shit. And maybe I am. But I'd just hate to see an innocent life that hasn't even begun to live get killed under the knife if there are alternative options. I know that I could never live with myself if I were to ever get an abortion, and I don't know how people can do it that already have. But what really gets on my nerves is that someone I used to know very well claimed that she got raped and got pregnant and shortly after, got an abortion. It was all bullshit and when I found out what really happened, all hell broke loose and I've never spoken a full sentence to her since. All for attention. Ugh, society sickens me.
I know I worry about things that are out of my hands. I know I'm pessimistic, but at the same time, I'm realistic. I am tired...my arms hurt from pulling up carpet today with my bare hands...and I am emotionally drained. I feel like I'm ready to splode again.
I've been thinking about people recently...a lot. I tried to analyze why it is in human nature to be deceptive. The only thing that came to my mind was a quote from Fushigi Yuugi about humans..."alone they are weak, useless. However when they gether into large groups they will quickly cast out those that are weaker than they are, or just the slightest bit different." For the most part, this is true, sad to say. But then there's the people that are amazing in life, and they're always the first to die. I lost a good friend to suicide a couple of years ago. Nobody saw it coming, all it took was a petty fight with his father and he blew his brains out. While reflecting on this, I became slightly angry that I didn't do anything about it. If only he could have seen how many people loved him...his death shook people's lives. His dad could not return to the police force because carrying a gun became too much for him. His girlfriend was absolutely devastated. His family separated, his parents divorced and his sister is the middle of a custody battle. All from one person who tried so hard to keep others happy. It's very unfair to me that of all the people in the world, he had to die. R.I.P., dear friend, R.I.P.
I got into a debate with my mom tonight about abortions and proved to myself that I am incredibly pro-life. She seemed angry about my views and kept staring at me as if I was an inconsiderate piece of shit. And maybe I am. But I'd just hate to see an innocent life that hasn't even begun to live get killed under the knife if there are alternative options. I know that I could never live with myself if I were to ever get an abortion, and I don't know how people can do it that already have. But what really gets on my nerves is that someone I used to know very well claimed that she got raped and got pregnant and shortly after, got an abortion. It was all bullshit and when I found out what really happened, all hell broke loose and I've never spoken a full sentence to her since. All for attention. Ugh, society sickens me.
I know I worry about things that are out of my hands. I know I'm pessimistic, but at the same time, I'm realistic. I am tired...my arms hurt from pulling up carpet today with my bare hands...and I am emotionally drained. I feel like I'm ready to splode again.