(no subject)
so today i move to Provo. where exactly i am staying is still uncertain. bangs head on wall. but i am coming back here on friday and leaving for las vegas from here. i feel more secure with my friends here. spent 2 days here on my own. whilst they were out of town. it was lovely. had breakfast in the garden and supper. sat in the shade and just enjoyed the sunshine. did some embroidery. listened to lovely music. cried a lot whilst i tried to make the dark line of clouds in my mind go away. all the pills i take are supposed to stop that depression. but they don't always.
today is another lovely day. yesterday i wrote to my two step daughters as well, we have minimal contact so i decided to actually break the contact. by minimal i mean i rememberchristmas and their birthdays and then have to check if things have arrived okay. meanwhile they ignore me at christmas and my birthday. enough already. their dad told me needn't feel guilty if i decided to cut my contacgt with them, he found them difficult at times himself. so one large weight taken off my shoulders.
today is another lovely day. yesterday i wrote to my two step daughters as well, we have minimal contact so i decided to actually break the contact. by minimal i mean i rememberchristmas and their birthdays and then have to check if things have arrived okay. meanwhile they ignore me at christmas and my birthday. enough already. their dad told me needn't feel guilty if i decided to cut my contacgt with them, he found them difficult at times himself. so one large weight taken off my shoulders.