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Owwww, owwww my heart hurts :( I thought I was over Dan Fego. And I was. We weren't talking, I was rarely thinking about him. I only thought about him when I met a guy who was an asshole, and wished more people could be like him. But I guess I wasn't THAT over him.... Because everytime it says there's a change in his profile on Facebook, I click right away. And I clicked. And he's in a relationship. Stupid Dan Fego, who's too "messed up" to be with me, who needs to "get through some stuff before he can even imagine getting into a relationship" has a girlfriend. Who isn't me. When I saw it, my stomach lurched upward. The same feeling I got when we broke up. The same feeling I got when we started hooking up again and it ended again. The feeling of my stomach moving up to my heart so that the bile can eat away at it. I want to cry, but I know I have no reason to. It was over a long time ago, and I knew it would never be again. But I never got over the fact that he was the best boyfriend I've ever had, the one I've loved the most. And I'm so scared I'll never find someone as good as him again. So when I see that someone else gets to bask in his love, his affection, gets to enjoy all the things I love about him.... I feel my heart breaking all over again.
Fucking Facebook.