The past couple of weeks
yeah I know.. a none too creative title, but pppptht. I'm dead-dog tired right now. I have basically worked for two weeks straight through. Last week was Homecoming, and I got the long shift on Saturday for the dance. 11+ hours. Made me realize I'm not in my 20's anymore like nothing else....I used to pull back to back 14 and 16 hour shifts for 12 straight no worries...not anymore. Granted.. also decided to go out and wind down and have some fun afterwards until nearly noon Sunday... In Denver w/ Leslie and Jeff at the Denver Arts Museum during their 36 hour grand re-opening stint for their new wing. (Very Cool). And yes.. a part of the reason I did that was to get out of dinner with Brian/Master Goliath.....turns out all it did was postpone it for a week.. he will be up here tomorrow, as I told him that I cannot go to Denver this week, as I would miss out on going to an event next weekend and the Halloween party down there the week after....and all of this after I explained that when I would be down there I would be with someone already.. on both occasions. Now to update for those who aren't all up on the drama.....
I have been talking with a nice gentleman named Michael for the past few months, and we have been corresponding for a few months longer than that, and chatting off and on since May. Mostly just as friends, but considerations turned slightly more serious shortly after Luke and I broke it off. Although not too much more serious....he wants to go slowly and see where things might lead, and so we are meeting next weekend as friends at a Japanese rope workshop that will be for the entire weekend, and I will be staying down in Denver at a hotel, a bit of a mini-vacation for me as well. We have several things in common, including religion, and he is a Dominant. Michael is the person who I will be with for next weekend and for Halloween. He has expressed a wish to meet with Jeff, and I'm sure he would have no problems in contacting you as well, Luke, as he is more than amenable to the idea. Even though we are just meeting as friends, initially, I have been trying not to go out of my way to meet with other Dominants, at least not until I know where this will go, as it is considered bad form to do so, unless the person in question is poly and has expressed that it would be ok, and Michael isn't, and has expressed the opposite... which leads up to the next two bits of drama...First the situation with Goliath(he who is Dom-er than-thou and cannot take a friggin hint)and second.. the less extreme.. but still possibly problematic- Zak.
As I just stated, Goliath can't seem to take a real hint. Even though one was dropped on his head by Michael, and by his sub(whom I guess he is sharing-his issue.. not mine). I suppose a small part of the blame is mine, as after chatting with him briefly (ie- hows the weather type bs)he asked if I had ever seen one of his professional performances, and in truth, no I haven't.. I did watch him do a few things at Stripped and Whipped, but that is not the same as an official "showing". He stated that he would be at Static again Nov 5 when they do their Halloween fetish ball, and he mentioned something about performing then. (?) He invited me to come down to the club to watch, which is fine since I would have probably been there anyway. I thanked him for the invite (and all the other invites he has sent to other demos he's done in the past 4 weekswhich I have also turned down). He then noted that as I was "new" to things, and asked if I has anything appropriate/fetish-y to wear to such an event, or what I had planned for a halloween costume. I said that yes, I do have some fetish-y type stuff, but that I really hadn't put much thought towards a costume at all.(odd for me.. but, yeah.. ok)Some other smart-ass in the chat suggested an oriental theme, and I noted that that would be as good as anything else, I supposed, and that I might be able to get ahold of a Dress Kimono or Aeoh-Dai. Goliath mentioned that a Geishas costume would be perfect, and I said ah , sure why the heck not... no better ideas. (and yeah, I have been working on that theme here for a bit, and I may be able to beg the servises of a professional Mau) I spoke with mom about maybe borrowing her kimono one last time, and was told heck no( it is worth over 7grand)and so I looked into making one...and I may yet for next year, but it will cost the same as just buying one outright from the imports store, along with an obi. Now apparently, I'm being a good little subbie and following his wishes....so....now he's trying to extract promises and other annoyances from me, and has been insistant that we meet for coffee or dinner before hand, and he keeps intimating that he would love to make my "dreams" come true by having me tied up/ suspended in front of hundreds.... hmmmmmm.. sounds like visions of granduer on his part.He has even started intimating that he's like to go further than that as well :(. I even spoke with Michael about possibly bringing him up for the Nov 5 show. Goliath got ticked. Now the two are having a "my penis" contest...sadly, Goliath is looking ever more the idiot for starting it. Very bad for a professional, Imo.
Then there's the thing with Zak....*sigh*.. I think it may resolve itself.. but at this point I'm really not too sure. In short Zak is a Dom that I had met with, and did a few small, light scenes with. He is poly, and encouraged me to be so as well, so that I wouldn't be "denied" any needs.. he actually got after me for involving myself in self denial....but at any rate, one of the last times I spoke with him on the phone, he hung up on me....I sincerely thought that would be the last I'd hear from him, period, and with Michael coming in, and the fact that I really had only started to get to know him, it really didn't bother me too awfully much. Aggravated me a little though. Then I heard back from him and he was in Vegas...asked me if I knew of any good places to go to.. and I gave him a few ideas (BWEG). I haven't heard back from him again since.. but I some how get the odd suspicion that it's not quite over with yet...
Other than that drama.. work is... getting interesting in a not good way. The entire crew recieved an official verbal warning about "sexually harassing" our night crew lead. and by that I mean she claims to be offended by cussing, racial epithets, or any references to sex,gender, or sexuality. I would have some sympathy if it weren't for two things: She cusses like a sailor, calls everybody gay, faggot, queer and is constantly dropping the n-bomb, and if I wasn't the one getting my ass in a sling for something I had nothing to do with, and in such a way that it could fuck up my asprirations to teach.
Needless to say that and a few other things have me ready for a vacation...away from it all. I am stressed, I am tired, and getting cranky. Next week.. and the week after.... I am thoroughly looking forward to it, for the time off, and I really so look forward to meeting Michael. Ialmost hesitate to say anything, as I don't want to jinx it.. but I have a good feeling about this one:).
I have been talking with a nice gentleman named Michael for the past few months, and we have been corresponding for a few months longer than that, and chatting off and on since May. Mostly just as friends, but considerations turned slightly more serious shortly after Luke and I broke it off. Although not too much more serious....he wants to go slowly and see where things might lead, and so we are meeting next weekend as friends at a Japanese rope workshop that will be for the entire weekend, and I will be staying down in Denver at a hotel, a bit of a mini-vacation for me as well. We have several things in common, including religion, and he is a Dominant. Michael is the person who I will be with for next weekend and for Halloween. He has expressed a wish to meet with Jeff, and I'm sure he would have no problems in contacting you as well, Luke, as he is more than amenable to the idea. Even though we are just meeting as friends, initially, I have been trying not to go out of my way to meet with other Dominants, at least not until I know where this will go, as it is considered bad form to do so, unless the person in question is poly and has expressed that it would be ok, and Michael isn't, and has expressed the opposite... which leads up to the next two bits of drama...First the situation with Goliath(he who is Dom-er than-thou and cannot take a friggin hint)and second.. the less extreme.. but still possibly problematic- Zak.
As I just stated, Goliath can't seem to take a real hint. Even though one was dropped on his head by Michael, and by his sub(whom I guess he is sharing-his issue.. not mine). I suppose a small part of the blame is mine, as after chatting with him briefly (ie- hows the weather type bs)he asked if I had ever seen one of his professional performances, and in truth, no I haven't.. I did watch him do a few things at Stripped and Whipped, but that is not the same as an official "showing". He stated that he would be at Static again Nov 5 when they do their Halloween fetish ball, and he mentioned something about performing then. (?) He invited me to come down to the club to watch, which is fine since I would have probably been there anyway. I thanked him for the invite (and all the other invites he has sent to other demos he's done in the past 4 weekswhich I have also turned down). He then noted that as I was "new" to things, and asked if I has anything appropriate/fetish-y to wear to such an event, or what I had planned for a halloween costume. I said that yes, I do have some fetish-y type stuff, but that I really hadn't put much thought towards a costume at all.(odd for me.. but, yeah.. ok)Some other smart-ass in the chat suggested an oriental theme, and I noted that that would be as good as anything else, I supposed, and that I might be able to get ahold of a Dress Kimono or Aeoh-Dai. Goliath mentioned that a Geishas costume would be perfect, and I said ah , sure why the heck not... no better ideas. (and yeah, I have been working on that theme here for a bit, and I may be able to beg the servises of a professional Mau) I spoke with mom about maybe borrowing her kimono one last time, and was told heck no( it is worth over 7grand)and so I looked into making one...and I may yet for next year, but it will cost the same as just buying one outright from the imports store, along with an obi. Now apparently, I'm being a good little subbie and following his wishes....so....now he's trying to extract promises and other annoyances from me, and has been insistant that we meet for coffee or dinner before hand, and he keeps intimating that he would love to make my "dreams" come true by having me tied up/ suspended in front of hundreds.... hmmmmmm.. sounds like visions of granduer on his part.He has even started intimating that he's like to go further than that as well :(. I even spoke with Michael about possibly bringing him up for the Nov 5 show. Goliath got ticked. Now the two are having a "my penis" contest...sadly, Goliath is looking ever more the idiot for starting it. Very bad for a professional, Imo.
Then there's the thing with Zak....*sigh*.. I think it may resolve itself.. but at this point I'm really not too sure. In short Zak is a Dom that I had met with, and did a few small, light scenes with. He is poly, and encouraged me to be so as well, so that I wouldn't be "denied" any needs.. he actually got after me for involving myself in self denial....but at any rate, one of the last times I spoke with him on the phone, he hung up on me....I sincerely thought that would be the last I'd hear from him, period, and with Michael coming in, and the fact that I really had only started to get to know him, it really didn't bother me too awfully much. Aggravated me a little though. Then I heard back from him and he was in Vegas...asked me if I knew of any good places to go to.. and I gave him a few ideas (BWEG). I haven't heard back from him again since.. but I some how get the odd suspicion that it's not quite over with yet...
Other than that drama.. work is... getting interesting in a not good way. The entire crew recieved an official verbal warning about "sexually harassing" our night crew lead. and by that I mean she claims to be offended by cussing, racial epithets, or any references to sex,gender, or sexuality. I would have some sympathy if it weren't for two things: She cusses like a sailor, calls everybody gay, faggot, queer and is constantly dropping the n-bomb, and if I wasn't the one getting my ass in a sling for something I had nothing to do with, and in such a way that it could fuck up my asprirations to teach.
Needless to say that and a few other things have me ready for a vacation...away from it all. I am stressed, I am tired, and getting cranky. Next week.. and the week after.... I am thoroughly looking forward to it, for the time off, and I really so look forward to meeting Michael. Ialmost hesitate to say anything, as I don't want to jinx it.. but I have a good feeling about this one:).