"I'll Call You Later and Explain Everything"
So, yesterday John text me in the morning with "I'll call you later and explain everything". Well, to make a long story longer, he basically told me that he did like me and the thing with Amanda (yes, that's her name) happened over night and was serious and he didn't know how to tell me and he feels so bad and hopes we can still be friends. Honestly, how can I just be friends with him without it hurting?!? There's no way! Everyone thinks that I'm not girlfriend material. I guess that's sort of the image I put off for everyone, because when I hurt, I hurt a lot. Sooo, if I don't try and get into an emotionally intimate relationship, I can't get hurt.
Justin was the only person whos arms I could lay in and talk about nothing and not be expected to sexually gratify him. John made me feel for the short time when I had his undivided attention that we could have something like that. I don't mean to sound like a grinch, but I hate the holidays; I don't have enough money, work gets extra crazy, and I'm lonely.
I guess it really doesn't matter who you are in high school...I was really popular and there were a lot of people who wanted to be around me. Now I feel more alone than ever.
Justin was the only person whos arms I could lay in and talk about nothing and not be expected to sexually gratify him. John made me feel for the short time when I had his undivided attention that we could have something like that. I don't mean to sound like a grinch, but I hate the holidays; I don't have enough money, work gets extra crazy, and I'm lonely.
I guess it really doesn't matter who you are in high school...I was really popular and there were a lot of people who wanted to be around me. Now I feel more alone than ever.