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[kaliabum]

i wish i hadnt fucked things over. AGAIN. things just dont work out for me. and now i feel even more alone than i did in the first place. i realized why i am so dependent on other people, its because i have never been able to depend on anyone in my life, so now if i connect with someone, i start depending on them and weighing them down, i want to apologize.

i want you back
your the only thing im certain of in my crazy deluted world
your the only one for me,
my only love
i wish you felt the same
you should know
you should belive me
even if i lie to make it alright,
it will come out eventually
and i wish you would understand why i do the things i do
i wish i could write it to you
i want everything ot be ok again,
when i was with you,
all i could do is smile, so contently
now i see you, and want to cry
because ive hurt the one i can trust, the one i can love forever
my
only
one.