Interesting
A company I applied to in Asheville, contacted me for a phone interview. Huh. Of course I did the interview - thought it went rather well actually. Was supposed to hear from him today (yesterday as I post this), to schedule either a face-to-face or conference call interview with the bosses - but no dice. The job sounds great, the salary is beyond great, and I'd really like to get it. Wouldn't that be a kick in the pants? Time will tell.
Of course the job I stayed for hasn't happened yet. I supposedly already have it - in fact last week the pastor called me wondering where I was! LOL It was amusing. Regardless, I'm not starting work until I get a formal job offer. Until somebody gets they head out they ass, I ain't doin shit.
I've been meaning to post, and meaning to post, and meaning to post - but never actually getting around to post! LOL I've also been meaning to reply to comments - y'all have seen how far THAT's gone! lol
Had an interesting counseling session the other day. A new spin was put on my depression, and suddenly everything I've NOT been feeling lately has made sense. I've always known I've medicated myself with food - what my mentor once called putting myself in a "food coma" - which was pretty accurate. Apparently, I also medicate myself with depression. I thought I was feeling at peace - actually I don't feel much at all. It was starting to bother me - I've shut off my emotions SO much that I'm pretty much numb. Huh. Not really surprising, but surprising all the same. One can only stuff things down so much before something gives. I'm thinking it would be a good idea to free myself now, before I'm forced to. Things are always so much nastier when done by force - I should know. Been there, done that.
I know my place is not here. If this job I just interviewed for doesn't come thru, I'll work for the church a year, save my money, and just go. I'm thinking I've passed the point where I should be living my own life.
Of course the job I stayed for hasn't happened yet. I supposedly already have it - in fact last week the pastor called me wondering where I was! LOL It was amusing. Regardless, I'm not starting work until I get a formal job offer. Until somebody gets they head out they ass, I ain't doin shit.
I've been meaning to post, and meaning to post, and meaning to post - but never actually getting around to post! LOL I've also been meaning to reply to comments - y'all have seen how far THAT's gone! lol
Had an interesting counseling session the other day. A new spin was put on my depression, and suddenly everything I've NOT been feeling lately has made sense. I've always known I've medicated myself with food - what my mentor once called putting myself in a "food coma" - which was pretty accurate. Apparently, I also medicate myself with depression. I thought I was feeling at peace - actually I don't feel much at all. It was starting to bother me - I've shut off my emotions SO much that I'm pretty much numb. Huh. Not really surprising, but surprising all the same. One can only stuff things down so much before something gives. I'm thinking it would be a good idea to free myself now, before I'm forced to. Things are always so much nastier when done by force - I should know. Been there, done that.
I know my place is not here. If this job I just interviewed for doesn't come thru, I'll work for the church a year, save my money, and just go. I'm thinking I've passed the point where I should be living my own life.