To "Watcher":
......I suddenly realize why I hate anonymous posting. I'm not saying I didn't want you to say what you said, but I'm not exactly sure who you are either. Which is frustrating, because I kinda want you to continue talking to me and hopefully set me straight or something.
As for what you said... I guess your right. It just happened so gradually that I became 'obsessive' over people that I didn't realize what was happening until I had entered the realm of no return. I guess I'm not just 'obsessive' over people either, but over actions, over the future. I guess the worst fear I have is things not going how I planned. So in that sense, I would be a better writer than a role player. Being able to control what happens on both sides is so much easier. :P
So, this basically means I know the problem. Or at least, a buzzword that is supposed to identify my problem. ...so now what?
I'm not being sarcastic. I want to change, but I'm not sure how I'm supposed to go about it. Of course, I'm also taking drugs that are supposed to be helping me change my personality and so on, but I just can't feel it happening. Of course, I guess I just expect some sort of switch to sudden trigger in my head and everything looks different, but I guess that only happens in the movies.
So I am obsessive. So how do I become less obsessive? Do I just try to limit how much time I spend with the obsessive things? Do I try to go 'cold turkey' and just cut myself off for a time? Forever? Should I try to write, put down in words something that I can completely control so that I stop worring aobut other things?
And what does it mean to be a friend, exactly? I guess... I just don't know for sure. I thought a friend was just someone that you liked talking to, that you can have conversations about nothing that drag on into the wee hours of the morning. That you can just be with. I guess that the only person I can really call my friend is my sister, then. I can't remember how many times we just had wierd conversations that trailed off until 4AM.
If you are reading this 'Watcher', I would like for you to respond. Eitehr you are a neutral third party [which is what I really need right now], or you are someone involved that doesn't want your words clouded by your name. Either way, I want you to give me advice.
As for what you said... I guess your right. It just happened so gradually that I became 'obsessive' over people that I didn't realize what was happening until I had entered the realm of no return. I guess I'm not just 'obsessive' over people either, but over actions, over the future. I guess the worst fear I have is things not going how I planned. So in that sense, I would be a better writer than a role player. Being able to control what happens on both sides is so much easier. :P
So, this basically means I know the problem. Or at least, a buzzword that is supposed to identify my problem. ...so now what?
I'm not being sarcastic. I want to change, but I'm not sure how I'm supposed to go about it. Of course, I'm also taking drugs that are supposed to be helping me change my personality and so on, but I just can't feel it happening. Of course, I guess I just expect some sort of switch to sudden trigger in my head and everything looks different, but I guess that only happens in the movies.
So I am obsessive. So how do I become less obsessive? Do I just try to limit how much time I spend with the obsessive things? Do I try to go 'cold turkey' and just cut myself off for a time? Forever? Should I try to write, put down in words something that I can completely control so that I stop worring aobut other things?
And what does it mean to be a friend, exactly? I guess... I just don't know for sure. I thought a friend was just someone that you liked talking to, that you can have conversations about nothing that drag on into the wee hours of the morning. That you can just be with. I guess that the only person I can really call my friend is my sister, then. I can't remember how many times we just had wierd conversations that trailed off until 4AM.
If you are reading this 'Watcher', I would like for you to respond. Eitehr you are a neutral third party [which is what I really need right now], or you are someone involved that doesn't want your words clouded by your name. Either way, I want you to give me advice.