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Well, my health is getting seriously a lot better. I'm pretty sure I still have fibro, but I'm not afraid of it anymore. These days I'm more willing to try to push myself to take the stairs or to walk further or do a little more physical activity. I'm not afraid of pain like I used to be and I'm not have panic attacks just from anticipating pain. I still have the pain but I'm just so much better at coping with it and feeling like I'm in control of my body. Honestly, I don't remember the last time I felt like I had control over my body and that my body was my own. I don't think I have felt this way since I was a tiny tiny child if ever. It's really amazing to have a sense of bodily autonomy for the first time ever in my life. It has really changed my perception of my health and wellness. And not fearing pain is really an amazing place to be. I feel so much freedom to try different things and to be able-bodied again.