[Poem] Goodbye

[kakyuu_no_yume]

Some viewers to my personal lj might remember when I talked about finding out my childhood friend committed suicide. It really really shook me more then I wanted to admit to anyone even myself. Finally after a few months I got out what I wanted to say. Here it is. Im not gonna lie and cried horribly while writing this. This is for Tara.

Goodbye
I thought about seeing you
I want to say goodbye
but when I think about it
it makes me want to cry
I thought of all the times
we would spend together
we were young and innocent
those days should last forever
but time interfers
and I moved away
Ill never forget your face
as we drove away
we did still get together
even in high school
a lot of my guy friends
though you were oh so cool
but after graduation
we drifted far apart
we both got married
making a brand new start
often I would wonder
if I'd see you again someday
wonder if you'd remember
all the times we used to play
but then I heard the news
of how you took your life
I don't know why you thought
nothing good could come from strife
I feel party to blame
I wish we'd stayed in touch
I wish I'd been able to see you
I miss you very much
my childhood feels tainted
you held such a special place
now the memories I have
are laced with painful taste
you weren't able to find the peace
you obviously needed here
I only hope you find it now
Rest In Peace my dear.