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I've never felt like more of a parasite.
I'm waiting for honor board to deliberate. The way they looked at me when I told them the financial obligation was too much... That I didn't feel at home, that I felt unwanted....
They were looking at me like a parasite that sits in someones intestine and sucks up their nutrients. Like a plague victim that needed to be piled and burned so the infection couldn't spread. The way they looked at me, as if they couldn't possibly understand why I felt the way I did. Like I was a space alien. It's how I feel every time I step into the house. I feel like everyone's eyes are on me with disgust. The way Catherine talked to me, like I was such a pest or annoyance. I hate Catherine, she's one of the biggest reasons I don't feel at home on DG.
I don't know how to move forward from this. I wish I could already be done with school and be deployed. I'd rather be shot at this point.
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