Fuck my love life.
I'm not even sure if this is a safe place to post this or what but I need to vent and I am otherwise incapable of doing so.
There are two girls in my life, and that would be a problem for some people, but I'm not cheating, neither of them are even dating me and one has a boyfriend.
With one it's apparent she has given up on her and I ever being together, and that all this time, all these sweet words, everything was a lie. That's soul-crushing enough
and then there's the other girl and this makes me more upset in a sense, it's just...I have always believed life doesn't give you second chances, you can't change the past, but occasionally life will give you an opportunity to take a new chance. I felt like this was one of those moments, her and I have been friends for years, I've liked pretty much since we met. we had kinda grown apart, and thats okay I guess, but I missed her the whole time. It turned out that it was mutual, we recently reunited, and as much as I tried to avoid it, I started liking her again (not that it ever stopped, it just...it was like an ember you know? You can blow on an ember of a dying flame, and it'll start a fire again if you do it right)
I decided to play it cool for the most part. I asked her on a date sure, but for the most part, cool. Letting her know how I feel with out trying to be overbearing.
But it's apparent the feelings aren't mutual, She is seeing other guys, and thats fine but she told me she was going casual for now and not looking for commitment, now she tells me she is looking for a boyfriend and one of the guys she was seeing isn't interested in anything serious. It's just hard to give someone advice in a situation like this.
To think, I thought fate mighta been kicking a new chance my way, I guess it's true what they say, you really never can leave the friend zone
There are two girls in my life, and that would be a problem for some people, but I'm not cheating, neither of them are even dating me and one has a boyfriend.
With one it's apparent she has given up on her and I ever being together, and that all this time, all these sweet words, everything was a lie. That's soul-crushing enough
and then there's the other girl and this makes me more upset in a sense, it's just...I have always believed life doesn't give you second chances, you can't change the past, but occasionally life will give you an opportunity to take a new chance. I felt like this was one of those moments, her and I have been friends for years, I've liked pretty much since we met. we had kinda grown apart, and thats okay I guess, but I missed her the whole time. It turned out that it was mutual, we recently reunited, and as much as I tried to avoid it, I started liking her again (not that it ever stopped, it just...it was like an ember you know? You can blow on an ember of a dying flame, and it'll start a fire again if you do it right)
I decided to play it cool for the most part. I asked her on a date sure, but for the most part, cool. Letting her know how I feel with out trying to be overbearing.
But it's apparent the feelings aren't mutual, She is seeing other guys, and thats fine but she told me she was going casual for now and not looking for commitment, now she tells me she is looking for a boyfriend and one of the guys she was seeing isn't interested in anything serious. It's just hard to give someone advice in a situation like this.
To think, I thought fate mighta been kicking a new chance my way, I guess it's true what they say, you really never can leave the friend zone