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8 days till Thanksgiving.
Gee some things to give thanks for this year
1. First year without my dad.
2. Another year without my mom
3. Having to go visit my grandmother, who thinks I'm my mother. Great another reminder that my mom has passed away. Gee can't wait for that. What fun.
4. Won't get to see my sister in law probably because she'll be in the hospital. I hope she gets better. But I hate that she won't be home with my brother and their kids.
5. Probably will get a call from Jess, saying what a horrible friend I am, that I'm such a heartless bitch that deserves what I have.
6. That I'm not 21 so I'll be painfully sober and fully aware. When I just want to drink this holiday, spend it pukeing my guts out in the toilet and not go anywhere.
7. Because family, think you can trust them. Hell no, they are worse than the fucking cops. Anything you say or do will be held against you. Even when your trying to defend someone.
8. Thanks huh? you want thanks?! Thanks I'm not dead!? I might as well be. The only people that didn't lie were the two biggest liars that passed away!
Tis the fucking season!
I wish I was just dead. People wouldn't be this bad off. I wouldn't put people out of place! Heaven forbid I try and help someone out. Last time they can just run their fucking mouths. I won't say a damn thing. Hell I'd be better off just leaving here. I'm damned if I do, damned if I don't.
Like I said, Tis the fucking season!