Feb 18, 2007 23:54
So I got turned down by this guy d/t distance. For some reasons he wants me to friend some chick who just got on tribe. I knew by that, what the answer was going to be. Coupled with the lack of bites, non-replies to emails and just simply the realization that meeting someone has become so way more complicated.
Hm.
I'm disappointed but not surprised. Superfacial thoughts/visuals dictate this state and finding true honest folks is damn hard if you aren't either in the right place or the right size. I still have many, many more pounds to go so...
I don't know-I guess I am impatient for SOMEONE to notice the inside me not just the outer shell. I refuse to doll up but do I have a choice in this age of false beauty? I'll hold out that I do but...
I kinda wanna cry yet what good will it do other than clear my sinuses.
Can't quit though but maybe I'll just...I don't know.