Crappy medical news (but no crisis)
Well, I went in for a follow-up with my new doctor on my depression and sleep apnea. The CPAP machine is fantastic. I only have a bad day if I rip off the mask in the middle of the night and don't realize it. Per Bh's suggestion, I asked about Provigil on an as-needed basis. The doc was cool with that, but ran some blood tests as a precaution. Apparently, one of my liver enzyme tests was 'mildly high', she thinks in error, so I need to be retested before I can try the Provigil.
I also asked about switching to Wellbutrin, also per Bh. Bh said it improves mood. The doctor was very focused on the fact that Wellbutrin, out of the family of depression meds, does not have certain side effects as I am experiencing with the Celexa.
I'm functioning fairly well in a narrow emotional range; nether weepy nor joyful, neither optimist- nor pessistmist-ic. No crushing depression for Papa...but no ecstatic joy either. One corollary is a now-total lack of libido, which I apparently failed to notice (I noticed the decrease earlier, but not the disappearance) and the connected problem (how do I put this?): carbonation without the fizz? the pipes have pressure but the outlet is clogged (no, sounds too literal)? the well is full but the bucket comes up empty? the forest is full of wood but there's no leaves on the trees? there's motion in the ocean but no earthquake at the end? plenty of happiness but no happy ending? You get the idea. (Heck, how would you describe it in a non-Latinate manner?)
Wellbutrin also can increase anxiety, so I will not start it until after next week's trial. About 3-4 weeks after that, I should be able to assess its success.
Also depressing news: I clocked in at 205 lbs (@ 5', 10", for the curious). Ugh. 200 was my mile marker; my yay-I-haven't-crossed-it concrete I'm-not-that-unhealthy median divider. [Cue extended crash noise; a fiery explosion; a burning wheel rolling back towards the camera (there's always a burning wheel rolling away from an explosion - it's Michelin's Law of Thermodynamics).]
Bleah.
I also asked about switching to Wellbutrin, also per Bh. Bh said it improves mood. The doctor was very focused on the fact that Wellbutrin, out of the family of depression meds, does not have certain side effects as I am experiencing with the Celexa.
I'm functioning fairly well in a narrow emotional range; nether weepy nor joyful, neither optimist- nor pessistmist-ic. No crushing depression for Papa...but no ecstatic joy either. One corollary is a now-total lack of libido, which I apparently failed to notice (I noticed the decrease earlier, but not the disappearance) and the connected problem (how do I put this?): carbonation without the fizz? the pipes have pressure but the outlet is clogged (no, sounds too literal)? the well is full but the bucket comes up empty? the forest is full of wood but there's no leaves on the trees? there's motion in the ocean but no earthquake at the end? plenty of happiness but no happy ending? You get the idea. (Heck, how would you describe it in a non-Latinate manner?)
Wellbutrin also can increase anxiety, so I will not start it until after next week's trial. About 3-4 weeks after that, I should be able to assess its success.
Also depressing news: I clocked in at 205 lbs (@ 5', 10", for the curious). Ugh. 200 was my mile marker; my yay-I-haven't-crossed-it concrete I'm-not-that-unhealthy median divider. [Cue extended crash noise; a fiery explosion; a burning wheel rolling back towards the camera (there's always a burning wheel rolling away from an explosion - it's Michelin's Law of Thermodynamics).]
Bleah.