life is pain, princess....
Today i am in so much pain, not for me, but for others... Some of my friends are suffering and i can do nothing to ease it for them... My friend is going to lose his mother, and this effects so many people because his mother is well loved by many...
After reading
troystar's post about the news and hospital visit and then Andrew's post on facebook about how he may not be able to travel to see his mum.. i am feeling rather desperate, and angry, at the moaners who have taken so much for me beacuse they like to mope, meanwhile, MY FRIEND is losing his MOTHER and still finds away to post without it sounding remotely like a pity-party... and
troystar and his partner are facing their own personal tradgey in the form of EXHILE and they are still able to give Andrew and his family the care and support they need....
I wish i could wrap everyone up in a fluffy soft blanket and hold them close and let them feel my love and my support, so that i could give them some strength and love and let them feel safe and comforted for awhile, so that i could let them see that they are not alone... but i cant... becuase life and distance seperate us, and i think they might all feel silly in my fluffy blanket even if it does smell like hapiness and fabric softener.....
the thing that makes me the angriest about this, is that my friends have to go through shit, and that life is so unfair, and i wasted time listening to people MOAN over trivial shit at Polaris, because i want everyone to be happy and i try to listen to my friends even if i think that maybe they are causing their own strife... a good friend listens right???
Well, a certain DJ i wasted time listening to... i was gonna let it go, i got another pity party email about how i was slighting him at the con and he was feeling avoided and blah blah... Well you know what, he pissed me off, and now he is gonna know why... because my friends are going through real pain, and i could care less that he thinks that my
troystar got him kicked off Concept's dance--- if you read any of his posts or even talk to him for two minutes, you can tell that this is a man full of care and compassion and would not do anything to hurt anyone... At least if you had an ounce of sense you could...
So here is my vow, life is pain princess, i know this, you all know this, but before you go moaning about how you are so hard done by, think, people are losing their loved ones everyday, to illness, misunderstanding, distance, time, and you are sitting there, oh poor me????
i wish that people with their health, good jobs, and no fear of discrimination of predujuice could face some real tradegy... maybe then the pity parties would stop/...
if you cant tell the difference between a real need to share, and a pity party, then you are probably throwing a pity party.... if you are confused, see Lee's facebook note; http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=2357393924 ... illness, dispair, loss of loved ones, justifiable... i am better than so and so so why are they the dj?? not so much.....
hugs love and lots of prayers... i love you guys....
After reading
troystar's post about the news and hospital visit and then Andrew's post on facebook about how he may not be able to travel to see his mum.. i am feeling rather desperate, and angry, at the moaners who have taken so much for me beacuse they like to mope, meanwhile, MY FRIEND is losing his MOTHER and still finds away to post without it sounding remotely like a pity-party... and
troystar and his partner are facing their own personal tradgey in the form of EXHILE and they are still able to give Andrew and his family the care and support they need....
I wish i could wrap everyone up in a fluffy soft blanket and hold them close and let them feel my love and my support, so that i could give them some strength and love and let them feel safe and comforted for awhile, so that i could let them see that they are not alone... but i cant... becuase life and distance seperate us, and i think they might all feel silly in my fluffy blanket even if it does smell like hapiness and fabric softener.....
the thing that makes me the angriest about this, is that my friends have to go through shit, and that life is so unfair, and i wasted time listening to people MOAN over trivial shit at Polaris, because i want everyone to be happy and i try to listen to my friends even if i think that maybe they are causing their own strife... a good friend listens right???
Well, a certain DJ i wasted time listening to... i was gonna let it go, i got another pity party email about how i was slighting him at the con and he was feeling avoided and blah blah... Well you know what, he pissed me off, and now he is gonna know why... because my friends are going through real pain, and i could care less that he thinks that my
troystar got him kicked off Concept's dance--- if you read any of his posts or even talk to him for two minutes, you can tell that this is a man full of care and compassion and would not do anything to hurt anyone... At least if you had an ounce of sense you could...
So here is my vow, life is pain princess, i know this, you all know this, but before you go moaning about how you are so hard done by, think, people are losing their loved ones everyday, to illness, misunderstanding, distance, time, and you are sitting there, oh poor me????
i wish that people with their health, good jobs, and no fear of discrimination of predujuice could face some real tradegy... maybe then the pity parties would stop/...
if you cant tell the difference between a real need to share, and a pity party, then you are probably throwing a pity party.... if you are confused, see Lee's facebook note; http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=2357393924 ... illness, dispair, loss of loved ones, justifiable... i am better than so and so so why are they the dj?? not so much.....
hugs love and lots of prayers... i love you guys....