100% biscuit?

Jul 25, 2009 07:37

I've talked before about wanting to rid myself of gender entirely. I remember, as a three-year-old in preschool, standing in the boys' line and not having the foggiest idea what was bad about that. I remember, in my mid-teens, reading Hindu mystics' writings about attachment and letting go and becoming one with everything and resolving to identify myself as "Just me. No adjectives." I remember, in my first days of college, being asked to describe myself in one word and settling on "nothing", after being unable to think of anything satisfactory-I certainly didn't even think of "female".

Thing is, I never thought I could do it. Intrigued by featherynscale's mention, I got to reading Kate Bornstein's My Gender Workbook, and it's got me thinking: Maybe I can do this. Maybe I don't need to purge myself of every thought or behavior that could ever be labelled "feminine". Maybe I don't need to bind my chest, stuff my pants, and paste on a beard every day before I can claim to be anything other than a woman. Maybe having a few female-ish things about me isn't an obstacle to being a non-gendered person-or a worthwhile one, for that matter.

Right. I'm going to give this no-gender thing a shot, and the doubters and haters can form an orderly line to suck my dick. featherynscale, we may not talk directly very much, but you're a help and an inspiration just by being out there.

navel-gazing, gender

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