Betrayal And The Death of Jen:
I honestly can't remember which dream came first so I will post in order of the time I remembered my dreams which means Betrayal comes first.
Betrayal:
I remember I was spending the night at Melinda's house cause we were having a high school reunion and I stayed at her place. For some reason, in my dream, the high school reunion was in Japan. But in real life everyone planned the reunion for Las Vegas. I was going to bed and Melinda walked in the room. I don't remember what we talked about but she leaned in to kiss me and I said no. She kissed my cheek and I let her. Then my neck, my forehead, my ears. I enjoyed it but I hated it. An odd paradox. She left and came back in later and crawled on top of me. This time I didn't stop her from kissing me. Physically, I enjoyed it so much but mentally and emotionally I despised it.
The Death of Jen:
I was back with my parents. They let me live with them cause I was so terribly sad and couldn't go on with my life. I didn't see Jen or how she died or anything. I just know in my dream she was dead. I remember my mom telling me to eat something. I couldn't. She came back from the store with my favorite cereal, Golden Grahams, and begged me to eat. I ate a bowl. I know a couple weeks flew by and I was starving cause I didn't eat. I had another bowl of cereal.
I went outside alone to think. Even though my parents live in a city, when I stepped outside I was wondering alone in the dark woods. It was very foggy and creepy. I really let her death sink in and realized that I would never talk to her again. Never hear her laugh, and never hear her cute voice. I was trembling, with rage and depression. I wanted to cut and mutilate myself. I wanted to die. I wanted to curse God and turn completely evil and twisted. I wanted to see Jen. I started to realize that I would betray Jen by doing all these things and had to live a good life as I would have if she were still here. I started to wander through the woods alone.
Betrayal:
I remember I was spending the night at Melinda's house cause we were having a high school reunion and I stayed at her place. For some reason, in my dream, the high school reunion was in Japan. But in real life everyone planned the reunion for Las Vegas. I was going to bed and Melinda walked in the room. I don't remember what we talked about but she leaned in to kiss me and I said no. She kissed my cheek and I let her. Then my neck, my forehead, my ears. I enjoyed it but I hated it. An odd paradox. She left and came back in later and crawled on top of me. This time I didn't stop her from kissing me. Physically, I enjoyed it so much but mentally and emotionally I despised it.
The Death of Jen:
I was back with my parents. They let me live with them cause I was so terribly sad and couldn't go on with my life. I didn't see Jen or how she died or anything. I just know in my dream she was dead. I remember my mom telling me to eat something. I couldn't. She came back from the store with my favorite cereal, Golden Grahams, and begged me to eat. I ate a bowl. I know a couple weeks flew by and I was starving cause I didn't eat. I had another bowl of cereal.
I went outside alone to think. Even though my parents live in a city, when I stepped outside I was wondering alone in the dark woods. It was very foggy and creepy. I really let her death sink in and realized that I would never talk to her again. Never hear her laugh, and never hear her cute voice. I was trembling, with rage and depression. I wanted to cut and mutilate myself. I wanted to die. I wanted to curse God and turn completely evil and twisted. I wanted to see Jen. I started to realize that I would betray Jen by doing all these things and had to live a good life as I would have if she were still here. I started to wander through the woods alone.