I didn't think you COULD feel that alone in a room packed full of people
This past evening was not as pleasant as last weeks. I guess the delusion that this week I might get to talk to some people was lunacy and has since disolved. The reality really is, I suck at meeting people. Not that this is new, just that it's something I would like to accomplish in a span of time that is not so excessive.
I did try the Drink. Pleasant place, sort of like a split between Privilage and Withrowes... actually, you could put those two buildings together and you'd have the place. Still not very big, but that's the way it goes. Cover was a little more expensive than Zaephod's ($4 compared to $3) but the drinks were crazy expensive. I can't pay $6 for a bottle of Hieniken, I'm sorry.
I wasn't really feeling the vibe there so I left and went to Zaephods, since it's only a few blocks away. My plan B. The highlight of the evening was a guy who was clearly very drunk complimenting me on my dancing -- I obliged him with a high five, which he seemed to like. Beyond that, I didn't really have any human contact whilst wading through the crowds. I don't know how so many people can all avoid eye contact so expertly. Anyways, who cares.
My verdict is; I do like to go out dancing. The clubs are fun. However, I don't think it would be possible for me to meet someone at that kind of place in really any circumstance. I cannot strike up a conversation with someone when I cannot hear, nor am I prone ot speaking loud enough to be heard. And I don't just want to pick up some person and never see them again; I don't work that way. But being at this clubs, there's no emphasis on persona and there's every emphasis on looks.
Sadly, I know I'm quite capable of flirting with people in normal situations. I could easily ask someone out if I can converse with them for a few minutes. But I have a hard time going out to places where I might meet these people, and moreover, I'm often not awake early enough these days to make that practical. Similarly, I've noticed that I'm getting paler. I presume this is from working nights, but it might have just been something I ate tonight... Who knows.
It's been a while since I've felt this low. Perhaps the worst part is, it seems that everyone else I know is depressed lately too.
Fuck.
- Kagirinai
I did try the Drink. Pleasant place, sort of like a split between Privilage and Withrowes... actually, you could put those two buildings together and you'd have the place. Still not very big, but that's the way it goes. Cover was a little more expensive than Zaephod's ($4 compared to $3) but the drinks were crazy expensive. I can't pay $6 for a bottle of Hieniken, I'm sorry.
I wasn't really feeling the vibe there so I left and went to Zaephods, since it's only a few blocks away. My plan B. The highlight of the evening was a guy who was clearly very drunk complimenting me on my dancing -- I obliged him with a high five, which he seemed to like. Beyond that, I didn't really have any human contact whilst wading through the crowds. I don't know how so many people can all avoid eye contact so expertly. Anyways, who cares.
My verdict is; I do like to go out dancing. The clubs are fun. However, I don't think it would be possible for me to meet someone at that kind of place in really any circumstance. I cannot strike up a conversation with someone when I cannot hear, nor am I prone ot speaking loud enough to be heard. And I don't just want to pick up some person and never see them again; I don't work that way. But being at this clubs, there's no emphasis on persona and there's every emphasis on looks.
Sadly, I know I'm quite capable of flirting with people in normal situations. I could easily ask someone out if I can converse with them for a few minutes. But I have a hard time going out to places where I might meet these people, and moreover, I'm often not awake early enough these days to make that practical. Similarly, I've noticed that I'm getting paler. I presume this is from working nights, but it might have just been something I ate tonight... Who knows.
It's been a while since I've felt this low. Perhaps the worst part is, it seems that everyone else I know is depressed lately too.
Fuck.
- Kagirinai