uh im tried...
+ General Feelings of Today +
i usally dont write in this thing anymore...i guess now since i have a few mins before im sending myself off to bed i thought i would write in it. and im thinking about allot of crap, driving me crazy. im extremly tired for some reason. i feel sick i guess too. i get hot and cold really fast too, ugh i bet im sick. i can afford some sick days i suppose. but its really kind of pointless sense because after this week, i have a week off. yup thanksgiving, and what not. so unless i have to throw my outta bed and crawl i guess im going to school all week. yay. today my dad was in a good mood, so i was like...yay alright...woo. which is good. he actually told me he kinda missed me this weekend, sense i wasnt home all weekend, and for a very damned good reason at that. which takes us to friday...
+ Friday +
needless to say, friday morning sucked. my phone was taken away that morning, due to the fact that i was on it at 1am, but for a damned good reason revisited. anyways, chris came down that day, and i was distrot at the fact that i couldnt get ahold of him! so it was rearrange plan time. and once you think about, it was a smart one. i felt terrible, i asked him if he could come and meet tiffany, her new bf, and myself at the mall, since we were already there, i had to leave my house, i cant stand when my dad is in i guess a mood, i was like peace out, i told him i was going to spend the night at tiffanys. Soooo...we're at the mall, and im trying my best to guide chris to there from where he was...needless to say...i sucked it, i could get lost in my house. BUT he did get there. so i told him to park somewhere and i would go to him, tiffany and mike wanted to follow me but they were making me hella nervous so i was like...just stay here, i can do this myself so i started walking, while i was on the phone with him, and i was like ok so what do you see, he was like oh i see a security guard thing, which was like right ass in front of me, so i was like go towards that! and he totally popped out from behind some freaking cars towards the back of that section of the parking lot i was like WOA...it was all funny and amusing and cute to me for some reason...so i yelled at him. it was cool how he just like...appeared hah, i was all nervous excited and scared at all the same. i mean i was totally nervous i guess i had a mind set for and odd scenerio but i was like omg. i saw him and i already had the biggest crush on him! anyways hung around the mall abit then went back to mikes house..i call him mike cause i cant spell out the longer version...*tard* and we all hung out. got home to tiffanys at like 2am. i had the best time ever.
+ Saturday +
saturday..i think we woke up around 11, finally got around to getting dressed and ready and comming up with plan of action, we ended upgoing back to mikes house around 3ish i guess and didnt leave to go back to tiffanys till around 6 or 7ish. ate something then went out to get some coffee or something or like...TRY TO FIND A FREAKING GAME ROOM...gah...come on....clear lake sucks so much ass. then we went back to mikes house and i didnt get back to tiffanys til 3am...it rocked.
+ Sunday +
i was so sad...i just wanted to cry, and a shower...cause i felt like ass and looked like ass. i dunno i was sad, i didnt want chris to leave, obvioulsy! i felt akward about allot of things. nothing bad but like...omg im suck a freakin wuss when it comes to saying how i feel, i've never really been that affectionate towards a person ever! NO! not they way your thinking...you pervs. so this weekend almost flew by so fast i was in shock, but it was fun, my dad took me and his dating partner out to lunch, then home...where some other crap came up with the other side of my family that kinda made me weird but meh well see what happens there. i sat and watched tv, going in and out of sleep after i took a shower...feeling sad and crap...feeling dumb too...and then my dad is like...okkk lets go get some ice cream and i was like YO MUTHA FUCKA WEEEEEEEEE........and now bed.
i usally dont write in this thing anymore...i guess now since i have a few mins before im sending myself off to bed i thought i would write in it. and im thinking about allot of crap, driving me crazy. im extremly tired for some reason. i feel sick i guess too. i get hot and cold really fast too, ugh i bet im sick. i can afford some sick days i suppose. but its really kind of pointless sense because after this week, i have a week off. yup thanksgiving, and what not. so unless i have to throw my outta bed and crawl i guess im going to school all week. yay. today my dad was in a good mood, so i was like...yay alright...woo. which is good. he actually told me he kinda missed me this weekend, sense i wasnt home all weekend, and for a very damned good reason at that. which takes us to friday...
+ Friday +
needless to say, friday morning sucked. my phone was taken away that morning, due to the fact that i was on it at 1am, but for a damned good reason revisited. anyways, chris came down that day, and i was distrot at the fact that i couldnt get ahold of him! so it was rearrange plan time. and once you think about, it was a smart one. i felt terrible, i asked him if he could come and meet tiffany, her new bf, and myself at the mall, since we were already there, i had to leave my house, i cant stand when my dad is in i guess a mood, i was like peace out, i told him i was going to spend the night at tiffanys. Soooo...we're at the mall, and im trying my best to guide chris to there from where he was...needless to say...i sucked it, i could get lost in my house. BUT he did get there. so i told him to park somewhere and i would go to him, tiffany and mike wanted to follow me but they were making me hella nervous so i was like...just stay here, i can do this myself so i started walking, while i was on the phone with him, and i was like ok so what do you see, he was like oh i see a security guard thing, which was like right ass in front of me, so i was like go towards that! and he totally popped out from behind some freaking cars towards the back of that section of the parking lot i was like WOA...it was all funny and amusing and cute to me for some reason...so i yelled at him. it was cool how he just like...appeared hah, i was all nervous excited and scared at all the same. i mean i was totally nervous i guess i had a mind set for and odd scenerio but i was like omg. i saw him and i already had the biggest crush on him! anyways hung around the mall abit then went back to mikes house..i call him mike cause i cant spell out the longer version...*tard* and we all hung out. got home to tiffanys at like 2am. i had the best time ever.
+ Saturday +
saturday..i think we woke up around 11, finally got around to getting dressed and ready and comming up with plan of action, we ended upgoing back to mikes house around 3ish i guess and didnt leave to go back to tiffanys till around 6 or 7ish. ate something then went out to get some coffee or something or like...TRY TO FIND A FREAKING GAME ROOM...gah...come on....clear lake sucks so much ass. then we went back to mikes house and i didnt get back to tiffanys til 3am...it rocked.
+ Sunday +
i was so sad...i just wanted to cry, and a shower...cause i felt like ass and looked like ass. i dunno i was sad, i didnt want chris to leave, obvioulsy! i felt akward about allot of things. nothing bad but like...omg im suck a freakin wuss when it comes to saying how i feel, i've never really been that affectionate towards a person ever! NO! not they way your thinking...you pervs. so this weekend almost flew by so fast i was in shock, but it was fun, my dad took me and his dating partner out to lunch, then home...where some other crap came up with the other side of my family that kinda made me weird but meh well see what happens there. i sat and watched tv, going in and out of sleep after i took a shower...feeling sad and crap...feeling dumb too...and then my dad is like...okkk lets go get some ice cream and i was like YO MUTHA FUCKA WEEEEEEEEE........and now bed.