welL my computer is now being disconnected because my parents are physco and hate me, so my phone , computer and everything is being taken away so i wont be updating anym0re.. well i doubt it anways :(
and it seems for the past two years nothing i have done has been good enough for you all , ive made mistakes and did things that i shouldnt have but thats my life, my mistakes, and my wrong doing, but people learn from what they do and i have, but that doesnt mean that you should try to conrtol me. yeah you are my parents and i do "live under your roof" daD.. but you dont know about the things that happen when your not around, mom has completely ruined everything in my life, she she thinks she knows everything about me,my friends,my boyfriend, my whole life, shes tryin to live my life just because she didnt get to do things in highschool shes taking it out on me, these past two years have been nothing but bad and i cant take it anymore, ive tired of living this life, espically depressed all the time.. i wanna live through HIghschool the next two years that i have left with my friends and having fun, but how can i when you dont even trust me enough to go out..im tired of being treated like a little kid, im not and i know im not mature right now, but i dont wanna be thats who i am ,and no im not like my brother im not perfect, i dont have a good job or make a lot of money , or have that good of grades. im sorry okay.. im sorry that im not everyything you wanted me to be and i didnt become what you exeactly wanted in your little girl but i cant be perfect and i may not ever be what you expected me to be.. but i cant help that i have problems & issues that i need to take care of MYSELF you dont need to be in my life and interfer with my problems.. and tell me how stupid i am if i make the choice i make.. it has nothing to do with you, all you are suppose to do it be there for ME and only me.. help me through my problems not control them i can deal with things on my own i want you there for me and behind me not tellin me what i did wrong. all ive wanted was to be good enough for you, make you proud but i havent... ive tried i have , ive also tried to talk to you but you dont understand me.. you just turn away and not try to listen to me , but i guess its too late and we cant go back so im sorry i cant be perfect..and you just think im wastin my time doin things i wanna do, but you gotta know that i need to earn your trust but you wont give me the chance, but it just huets when you disapprove all along, i cant pretend that im alright & you cant change me, but do you remember when we use to get along yeah it just seems far away now & you just dont care anymore..but i cant stand another fight and honestly i dont think nothings goin to be alright & nothing is goin to change the things that you said & i mean it nothings goin to make this right again.. the family i once loved and cared about..has drifted apart and i guess it is because of me but I am sorry for the things that ive done and said and how i hurt you all most of the time but you did it too.. its not just me... :(