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Thanks to the folks who have offered help. I'm not quite sure what plans are at the moment. I'm a little bit worried that if I do manage to get something up and going that is donation only and not offering anything in return that I'd feel guilty. So, thinking on that. Maybe I'll try... I actually don't know what I'll try.
Z sent me a facebook message about a day before she died, talking about her NaNoWriMo and asking advice about whether the concept was new and interesting enough to continue developing, and I kind of want to fiddle with that and see if I can complete it for her, but right now I can't even look at it. Still, if it turns into some sort of viable story... maybe put it up as an e-book for something small or ask for donations in her memory. Something.
Or offer knitting, maybe. I knit quickly.
But right now I am still processing. I didn't really have room to process while I was at family-home, because I was too busy making sure my parents kept eating and sleeping and not spending the entire day sobbing. Now I'm back home-home*, and I'm realizing that I've basically been blocking my brain off because I could not cope with my parents being as sad as they were AND being sad myself.
In other news, I've been goaded into applying for retail jobs, which is probably futile right now because let's face it, everyone just finished firing their excess holiday staff. Bluh.
Also I've been knitting a lot of really complicated lace because it makes my brain turn off for a bit when I can't handle things.
*I originally wrote this paragraph with two plain "home"s in it, and then realized I probably ought to qualify them somehow...
Z sent me a facebook message about a day before she died, talking about her NaNoWriMo and asking advice about whether the concept was new and interesting enough to continue developing, and I kind of want to fiddle with that and see if I can complete it for her, but right now I can't even look at it. Still, if it turns into some sort of viable story... maybe put it up as an e-book for something small or ask for donations in her memory. Something.
Or offer knitting, maybe. I knit quickly.
But right now I am still processing. I didn't really have room to process while I was at family-home, because I was too busy making sure my parents kept eating and sleeping and not spending the entire day sobbing. Now I'm back home-home*, and I'm realizing that I've basically been blocking my brain off because I could not cope with my parents being as sad as they were AND being sad myself.
In other news, I've been goaded into applying for retail jobs, which is probably futile right now because let's face it, everyone just finished firing their excess holiday staff. Bluh.
Also I've been knitting a lot of really complicated lace because it makes my brain turn off for a bit when I can't handle things.
*I originally wrote this paragraph with two plain "home"s in it, and then realized I probably ought to qualify them somehow...