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Just because I don't want school to end because I want to get in last minute good grades and sucking up and such, I have been denying the end of school. It's kinda undeniable now though, reading everyone's farewell entries, seeing all the graduations, prom being over.
This really all is beginning to depress me. Being a senior, it's so final, but it's not even that. I don't give a crap, especially since my senior schedule is fuller than my schedule now. Something that is actually making me sad is the fact that the seniors are leaving, just because they have always been around. I don't even talk to a lot of them, but you get used to being around them, especially since the other grades suck. And the ones I do know I am gunna miss a lot.
And seriously, before the end, I need to tell him, even if I act like it hasn't been for awhile. Because I have liked him more than I have anyone else, hands down. I don't know what it is, and I've given up on even trying to rationalize why I like him so much, but it isn't even important now. All that matters is that if I make an ass outta myself he will be gone, and if he isn't freaked out, he will be close. Sigh. I am so fucking nervous. Actually, no, I'm not. I'm really just trying to be patient for the moment to come up.
I fell asleep at like 9 and can't go to sleep before two usually, so I just woke up and I am feeling really incoherent now, so this entry may have not made any sense. Ahh, I am tired again. <3 katherine
This really all is beginning to depress me. Being a senior, it's so final, but it's not even that. I don't give a crap, especially since my senior schedule is fuller than my schedule now. Something that is actually making me sad is the fact that the seniors are leaving, just because they have always been around. I don't even talk to a lot of them, but you get used to being around them, especially since the other grades suck. And the ones I do know I am gunna miss a lot.
And seriously, before the end, I need to tell him, even if I act like it hasn't been for awhile. Because I have liked him more than I have anyone else, hands down. I don't know what it is, and I've given up on even trying to rationalize why I like him so much, but it isn't even important now. All that matters is that if I make an ass outta myself he will be gone, and if he isn't freaked out, he will be close. Sigh. I am so fucking nervous. Actually, no, I'm not. I'm really just trying to be patient for the moment to come up.
I fell asleep at like 9 and can't go to sleep before two usually, so I just woke up and I am feeling really incoherent now, so this entry may have not made any sense. Ahh, I am tired again. <3 katherine