So We'll Go No More A'Roving
I was just reading that poem by Lord Byron and it perfectly encompasses the feelings I have right now. I especially like the verses, "For the sword outwears its sheath/And the soul wears out the breast/And the heart must pause to breathe/And love itself have rest." I guess I need to put love to rest right now. The love I had has gone and I need to stop trying to seek out a replacement love. I should just give my heart its pause to breathe. I wish that Nathaniel still wanted to talk to me, he once said he'd never stop communicating with me even if we broke up but I suppose people change. He should do what he wants to do, I just wish he'd let me know that I should leave him be. If we have to make a clean break, I want to know that's what he wants. Five years vanishing into memory is hard to take. I still wake up lonely. I am still scared of my future but aren't we all? Fuck. I'll start crying again. I guess I better go for now.