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I wonder if I could pull something off. It would make this better. I wonder if by any chance, I could arrange to stay with alicia overnight when we go to k-town for homecoming. Its been so long since I've seen her, Im desperate enough to try and arrange it. Hell I'd stay at her house even. I just want to be with her as long as possible. I need it. I swear I will do anything to make that happen. I wonder if she will even read this. or if she will take it seriously. I dont know. I swear that if I can get that to happen, I will do anythingto pay for it. If I can do that, I can know if its really meant to be. I think that if she wants it too, we could pul it off. now that we are in college living with the opposite sex totally unsupervised, this should be no big deal. especiallly if I could find somene else maybe to stay the night. This feels like the best thing ive thought of like ever. OMG I really want this to happen. But I know that the only way its gonna happen is if she decides that she wants to. Baby if you read this, please please please if you even think that maybe you want to do this tell me and talk to your mom or whatever. I mean we could just go to your place and crash after we get off the train. Or if youd rather spend the night alone in your bed we could maybe stay at my house saturday night and go to church sunday together or something. I wish I coulda just asked you this but its so hard to get ahold of you anymore that I dont even feel like I can call you. that really feels wierd. anyway, since youre prolly the only one who reads this damn thing I guess i can use it to tell you things. Well please think about this. We have both said for so long how amazing it would be to fall asleep and wake up next to each other. I just think that maybe, we should go for it now before we both drift apart. I know that I will always wonder what if if we dont.