Just a recap on things recently
So life at the time being. Still shitty, still busting my ass for this class, la la la. Currently I'm working on the project that was due last week, and now I'm trying to finish this one so I can go ahead and get started on the newer project that was assigned last week that's due tomorrow. I also have a test tomorrow, but I came to the conclusion that as long as I keep get 60's on these tests it wont matter that much, just can't do abysmal on them. Because assuming I keep getting the same grades I am on these tests, that leaves me at about 20% or so deduced from my grade, I've been getting 100's on the projects so as long as my teacher hasn't been giving me any deductions for lateness that he hasn't told me about, I should be alright. Assuming I also do good on the final, this is just saying having a B, or a decent C, I should at least get a C for the class. That's all I want, I'm busting my ass this hard for at least a C!
Anyways, Dark Knight was awesome, of course. I was honestly surprised more by Eckhart's performance then Ledger's. I think that's mainly because I already knew Heath Ledger's joker was phenomenal and this was like half a year before the movie. But Eckhart's twoface was just, fucking yes, didn't really see it coming. I did want to go see it in imax, but apparently this weekend was the only time that it was showing then. Oh well... it would have been nice, but I guess people just never want to see this movie there, ever, the weekend after.
Also, I might add. I'm seriously hoping I don't get assigned another project before the final. Really hoping here. As long as that doesn't happen I should be fine. I'll be able to get this one done soon, most likely, weekend at the most. That still gives me about a week to just fill in whatever code I can on my last project and get at least partial credit, but another project would pretty much be nail + coffin at this point of time.
So, at the heart of it all, I'm still pretty depressed. I haven't had time to even exercise really, because I don't see the point of it if I don't get into a routine since I never stick with it if I don't, and I don't have time to schedule around my class right now. So I have two more weeks to just tough it out. So yeah, still pretty depressed, except for sunday and saturdy, but they were the first 2 days I hadn't felt self loathing since like, the beginning of July. Yeah fun. I don't know if it's just my current situation, or the fact that I've just never really paid much attention to how depressed I really am. But since I'm taking these herbal supplements I'm just kind of gauging them and seeing if they are working and it may take up to 5 weeks and they don't work if your mildly to moderately depressed. Soooooo, hopefully they end up working, because if they don't, then that could mean that I'm severely depressed, which would just be fan-fucking-tastic! Anyways, hopefully it's just my situation as things will be hopefully looking up when I'm not stressed out and tired every single day of the summer.
Here's to fucking hoping thats the case.
Anyways, Dark Knight was awesome, of course. I was honestly surprised more by Eckhart's performance then Ledger's. I think that's mainly because I already knew Heath Ledger's joker was phenomenal and this was like half a year before the movie. But Eckhart's twoface was just, fucking yes, didn't really see it coming. I did want to go see it in imax, but apparently this weekend was the only time that it was showing then. Oh well... it would have been nice, but I guess people just never want to see this movie there, ever, the weekend after.
Also, I might add. I'm seriously hoping I don't get assigned another project before the final. Really hoping here. As long as that doesn't happen I should be fine. I'll be able to get this one done soon, most likely, weekend at the most. That still gives me about a week to just fill in whatever code I can on my last project and get at least partial credit, but another project would pretty much be nail + coffin at this point of time.
So, at the heart of it all, I'm still pretty depressed. I haven't had time to even exercise really, because I don't see the point of it if I don't get into a routine since I never stick with it if I don't, and I don't have time to schedule around my class right now. So I have two more weeks to just tough it out. So yeah, still pretty depressed, except for sunday and saturdy, but they were the first 2 days I hadn't felt self loathing since like, the beginning of July. Yeah fun. I don't know if it's just my current situation, or the fact that I've just never really paid much attention to how depressed I really am. But since I'm taking these herbal supplements I'm just kind of gauging them and seeing if they are working and it may take up to 5 weeks and they don't work if your mildly to moderately depressed. Soooooo, hopefully they end up working, because if they don't, then that could mean that I'm severely depressed, which would just be fan-fucking-tastic! Anyways, hopefully it's just my situation as things will be hopefully looking up when I'm not stressed out and tired every single day of the summer.
Here's to fucking hoping thats the case.