This is not about our future
It's about what we do now.
So it can only be for a month. I'm okay with that now.
It's amazing. I've been Erin's confidant for so long, but for whatever absolute terrible reason, I never let myself believe that he could offer me any advice in return. And then today, I reach out, and bam, it's all better. Best friend a guy could have, let me tell you.
Ooooh lord I feel as though I'm a bit manic, as though I'm finally allowing myself to feel all of the happiness I should have felt after my date with Karen Tuesday and none of the guilt that I probably didn't need to feel in the first place.
I feel a little bit stupid that I let it get to me so much, but thank god for friends. Not just Erin; Kabil helped too. Had a good hike with him up East Glacier today, it was pretty sick. Ran into a woman who was struggling a little bit going in the opposite direction, so I gave her one of my water bottles. Actually, I think it was Sherrod or Malia's, so I hope they don't hate me, but I feel as though I made a substantial difference in that woman's day.
Watched Après Vous with Kabil and Erin. It was full of awkward, but a more believable awkward than your standard American movie, to great effect. It makes me wonder why people, why even I sometimes settle for a lie when the truth is not so terrible? Going to make a strong effort to be as honest as I can with people.
I have noticed that I am often leaving the subject out of my sentences in English, because so many other languages don't care, as it is indicated by the verb. I am going to redouble my Italian lessons; English is bollocks.
But yeah, Karen. I won't lie, I'm upset that I'll be leaving in August and she'll be returning to Croatia in September, but I'm just going to enjoy the time we spend together. She's coming back from Sitka soon, do I get her flowers, or a stuffed bear? I'm leaning towards the bear; it's a pretty sick stuffed bear. But then, flowers are flowers. What is a lovestruck guy to do?
On that note, I really wish their were an intermediary word for love. In Spanish, se puede decir "te quiero", ma in inglese there's nothing.
Anyway, I wish I knew when she gets back. I am quite excite.
Drinking: A Gascón Malbec, 2008. Third bottle I've bought, it is fantastic.
So it can only be for a month. I'm okay with that now.
It's amazing. I've been Erin's confidant for so long, but for whatever absolute terrible reason, I never let myself believe that he could offer me any advice in return. And then today, I reach out, and bam, it's all better. Best friend a guy could have, let me tell you.
Ooooh lord I feel as though I'm a bit manic, as though I'm finally allowing myself to feel all of the happiness I should have felt after my date with Karen Tuesday and none of the guilt that I probably didn't need to feel in the first place.
I feel a little bit stupid that I let it get to me so much, but thank god for friends. Not just Erin; Kabil helped too. Had a good hike with him up East Glacier today, it was pretty sick. Ran into a woman who was struggling a little bit going in the opposite direction, so I gave her one of my water bottles. Actually, I think it was Sherrod or Malia's, so I hope they don't hate me, but I feel as though I made a substantial difference in that woman's day.
Watched Après Vous with Kabil and Erin. It was full of awkward, but a more believable awkward than your standard American movie, to great effect. It makes me wonder why people, why even I sometimes settle for a lie when the truth is not so terrible? Going to make a strong effort to be as honest as I can with people.
I have noticed that I am often leaving the subject out of my sentences in English, because so many other languages don't care, as it is indicated by the verb. I am going to redouble my Italian lessons; English is bollocks.
But yeah, Karen. I won't lie, I'm upset that I'll be leaving in August and she'll be returning to Croatia in September, but I'm just going to enjoy the time we spend together. She's coming back from Sitka soon, do I get her flowers, or a stuffed bear? I'm leaning towards the bear; it's a pretty sick stuffed bear. But then, flowers are flowers. What is a lovestruck guy to do?
On that note, I really wish their were an intermediary word for love. In Spanish, se puede decir "te quiero", ma in inglese there's nothing.
Anyway, I wish I knew when she gets back. I am quite excite.
Drinking: A Gascón Malbec, 2008. Third bottle I've bought, it is fantastic.