[Page 29 - Jaejoong] ...Poor Boojae!!! DDDDx
Dear Diary,
Dear, dear Diary…
I didn’t mean it.
I wasn’t thinking. I mean…I never think. I thought we were all good enough friends that they would understand that.
But…
They’re so mean now.
Even Changmin. I was really surprised at how quickly he turned on me. Maybe we just weren’t deep enough.
Yeah. Cause if we were deep, then I wouldn’t have made out with Junsu.
But I keep making them breakfast every morning. And lunch. And dinner. They’ve always come for my food. Always, always. So, I figure if I keep it up, they’ll eventually give in and forgive me. I hope. We have a lot of leftovers now.
I understand, though. Would I like Changmin anymore if he cheated on me? And with one of my best friends, no less. Even if he was drunk, I’d still be mad. And Yunho…I kind of feel like I cheated on him twice for some reason. I’d definitely hate him if he did that to me.
Yunho.
Everyone else is just generally hostile. Even our other friends. Well, everyone else is just avoiding all of us all together because they don’t want to get involved, but Leeteuk stopped calling me his granddaughter… It makes me upset…
But Yunho.
He hasn’t said anything to me. He hasn’t even looked at me. He doesn’t go to the gym anymore. Instead he takes loooong jogs around the neighborhood. Great. He only jogs like that when he’s mad.
It really hurts because I feel like I have no one.
Well, recently…
Nah.
It’s just that…I caught Yunho snatching a bit of my breakfast one morning before Changmin could walk by the kitchen and ignore me again. It made me a little happy.
And he hasn’t kicked me out of our room yet. I fully expected to sleep on the couch the night after the incident, but…
I think what he’s doing is worse, though. He’s never in there when I’m in there. If I’m in our room changing and he walks in for something, he turns right back around and waits in the living room til I come out.
At least he’s not throwing my clothes all over the lobby.
Even Onew is mad at me right now for something completely unrelated. I just gravitate towards people that hate me.
I think-
…
Omg, Diary.
Yunho just spoke to me.
This is the first time in almost two weeks anyone outside of work has spoken to me directly without hostile intentions.
He just walked by me (I’m in our room. He walked in without walking right back out.) and said, “Is this yours?”
It was a belt he must have found lying around the house somewhere, but I honestly don’t even know whether that belt was mine or not. I just stared at him like an idiot and shook my head. Man, I’m stupid.
Maybe now Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin will forgive me soon. I hope. Hold on for a minute, Diary. I’m gonna go change my shirt and cook dinner.
…
On second thought…I’ll wear this one.
My favorite white shirt in my closet…
Has permanent marker scrawled all over it.
It says, Lair.
Changmin must have written it because he can’t spell in English worth a flip.
I’ll go throw it out and vacuum again. I don’t really feel like cooking or writing anymore.
~Jaejoong
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