Dear Diary~ [Page 19 - Changmin]
[Page 19 - Changmin] Sorry it took so long. ^_^" The writer's block demons were upon me. o.o But I've slain them all now and I've got lots of new ideas for our dong bang boys. >:]
Dear Diary,
I’m writing to you from inside a closet.
It’s just one more thing wrong with this apartment that stupid Yunho hyung is too lazy and incompetent to fix. He’s back by the way, Diary. He really seems okay with the whole me dating Jaejoong thing.
Oh, about me and Jaejoong…
That second time he kissed me. I just couldn’t figure out why the sensation of his first kiss wouldn’t leave me alone. So, when Jaejoong pulled me into his room to talk about the whole mess, I wasn’t even listening to him. I was just staring at his lips thinking if I just tried it out again, maybe I could figure everything out.
I don’t quite remember, but I think there was a brief moment of silence when Jaejoong stopped talking and just looked at me. And then I noticed how close together we were standing. Then his arm brushed against mine. And then my mouth was all up in his.
Diary…it was nice.
It was so nice, it doesn’t even bother me anymore that my first kiss was stolen by a guy. And my second kiss. And my third…and fourth…
Oh gosh, am I counting all the times I’ve kissed Jaejoong? Is that healthy? What if we go up into the three digit numbers? Actually, I don’t think I’d mind…
Oh, about me being in a closet.
See, there’s this closet in the laundry room that locks from the outside for some reason. Sometimes when someone bumps into the door, it locks itself and the next person to walk inside and close the door…well…
It hasn’t happened since we all moved in and now I’m the one stupid enough to get locked in first.
I don’t even remember what I needed in here anymore, Diary. I just happened to have you in my hand so Jaejoong wouldn’t steal you and now you’re stuck with me. This sucks.
Jaejoong isn’t home right now, Yoochun is sleeping again, Yunho was concentrating on some cell phone game when I last saw him and Junsu is…who knows? Probably hiding his butt from Yoochun.
How is anyone supposed to find me? Whoever built this apartment should die because this room is sound proof. You know what that means, Diary?
No one, NO ONE can hear my screams!
Why does the laundry room need to be sound proof? Our washer and dryer aren’t that loud. There’s no point. NO POINT.
And there’s a hole chewed out in the back corner and it’s freaking me out. I don’t want any little furry visitors while I’m trapped in here. When did that get there, anyway? I’m talking to the landlord when I get out.
IF I get out.
I’ll just distract myself with Jaejoong until someone decides to come wash some underwear or something.
…
I just depressed myself. No one washes clothes in this house but Jaejoong. And he’s out somewhere.
I seriously need some distracting.
So, Jaejoong. He’s so… Well, he’s definitely my favorite hyung. Actually, Yunho used to be my favorite hyung, but it just seems like Jaejoong should be my favorite hyung now. Right?
I think it’s perfect that he likes to cook and I like to eat. I especially like to sit in the kitchen and watch him cook. He’s all concentrated and lost in his craft, it’s so… It just makes me smile.
And I like it when he gives me my plate and stands back to watch my expression when I take the first bite. He does it every time, even when it’s a familiar dish he makes all the time. I guess he just wants to make sure he didn’t do anything different or maybe he’s making sure we don’t get bored with his cooking.
I don’t understand why he bothers to do it to me. I’ll eat anything he puts in front of me, so there’s no need to get all self-conscience. It still makes me happy, though.
And even though I get annoyed most of the time, I like it when we play one-touch. It’s something the two of us share and…I get to see just how strong I’ve been getting after working out. I went with Yunho to the gym again yesterday and I feel good. Pretty soon, I’ll dominate one-touch. Mwaha.
Do most couples do that? Okay, that was a stupid question. Most couples don’t hit each other. And in most cases if they do, it’s not good. I don’t remember seeing Jaejoong and Yunho do any of the things me and Jaejoong do.
Of course, I didn’t know they were going out before, so it’s not like I was trying to look. But now that I think about it, we’re really different.
They were always really gentle with each other. Even when Yunho criticized Jaejoong’s cooking on rare occasions, he’d comfort Jaejoong when he pouted. He’d turn the TV on to Jaejoong’s favorite show when the TV was alive, he’d give him a glass of fruit punch or something, and he’d just be sweet to him in general.
But me and Jaejoong… Well, I NEVER criticize his cooking and I always do what he asks me to do, so I’ve never had to comfort him like that. And usually we’re either just talking normally or jumping around playing one touch and joking with each other.
Our relationship just doesn’t seem as…what’s the word?
I wonderjhkg
Sorry, Diary. The light bulb in this closet just went out and came back on. Stupid Yunho hyung never changed the bulb.
…
I just had a thought. Thinking back to those times when I’d get hungry in the middle of the night and had to pass by Yunho and Jaejoong’s shared room, I remember hearing noises. At the time, I just thought maybe they were still up playing video games or something and Jaejoong was losing. But now that I think about it…
Maybe Yunho wasn’t always so gentle with Jaejoong.
Oh…my gosh.
That’s just…
They…
I think I just thought of the word to describe Yunho and Jaejoong’s relationship.
Mature. Very mature.
So, does that mean me and Jaejoong have an immature relationship? If I have to do those kinds of things to with Jaejoong, then I don’t want to be mature. Wait… What if Jaejoong steals my first…? What if he’s my first…? Or second…? Or…
I don’t want to think about that. I’ve never really been interested in that…department. But it seems like Jaejoong is since I’d wake up at night to eat a lot. And I heard noises from that room…A LOT.
Will Jaejoong eventually expect that from me? He hasn’t really mentioned it yet, but if he did…that with Yunho so much he’s bound to get antsy and try to pounce on me.
Not good.
I know Jaejoong. He’ll move in on me and then I’m not gonna want anything to do with it. And then he’ll think I’m kidding and just playing like usual and keep pushing me more and I’ll be like totally not playing. And he’s still stronger than me, so he’ll overpower me and eventually LIP RAPE isn’t the only thing I’ll have to worry about. It’ll be full on RA-
Gahhhhhh!!!
Wait. Would I be on top or bottom?
Gahhhhhh!!!
It doesn’t matter. Cause I’m going to get GUY RAPED by my boyfriend and there’s nothing anyone can do to stop the rage in Jaejoong’s pants.
Should I avoid him for a while? No. He’ll just get concerned and then corner me somewhere. And then he’ll GUY RAPE me and it’ll be all my fault.
What if I told him I would compromise? I’ll let him have his…relief but I won’t be overly involved with it. How could we do that? How do guys…with other guys…?
This is just complicated! I don’t know, but I don’t want there to be a top or bottom in whatever we do. That’s just too far. But if we aren’t going all the way, then wouldn’t that mean I would have to…?
Gahhhhhh!!!
The first time I was LIP RAPED the taste of Jaejoong’s mouth wouldn’t go away. I don’t think I could live with the taste of Jaejoong’s…
Gahhhhhh!!!
I can’t take the pressure anymore, Diary! I need to kill myself! I-
SOMEONE’S FINALLY COMING!
I can hear someone moving around just outside the laundry room. Maybe if I bang around and yell, they can hear me since whoever it is is so close. Here goes nothing, Diary.
It worked! They’re coming. I finally get to leave this-
OMG it’s Yoochun!!!!
NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
Do you know what he just did, Diary?!?!? He came in to see what was going on, realized it was me locked in the closet and ran out laughing.
HE LEFT ME IN HERE TO DIE!!!!! BECAUSE IT’S FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!
I can’t die in a closest. I can’t, I can’t. There’s so many things I want to do. I’ve never been able to eat real live Indian food, Diary. I hear it’s really good and I think there’s a lot of spices and I like hot stuff, so I know the experience would just be amazing. I’m starting to hyperventilate. Need to calm down…
I’M GOING TO DIE!!
Maybe in ten years, someone will open this door and find my rotten body, so I need to document this moment when people find us, Diary.
Dear Hero(s) of the Future,
I was an innocent boy. Just locked in a closet with no friend to call his aid. The one human being who knew of my existence in this wretched place while I was still alive, left me to perish, consumed in evil laughter. If he is still alive, Hero(s) of the Future, please get him for me. Lock him up in jail or torture him or tell Junsu it was him all along that was grabbing his butt. If Jaejoong is still alive, tell him I love him. Please do something else for me in my stead so I can rest in peace. Under my bed, there are a lot of videos. If you could, please-
Junsu’s coming, Diary! I’m saved!
…
He just called me an idiot, but I can live with that if I can live. Yay!
Now to find Yoochun…
~Min pwning the Ninja Master
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