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Excuse me while i fall apart
today my life completely came crashing apon me, I'm suspended for 10 days for being caught with anything illegal ive ever had on me at once...im on probation and will go to JAMS weekly, community service and 2 sets of counslers, possible expulsion....haha if i ever had any chance of graduation i pretty much just flushed it down the toilet
i've completely lost my parents, trust, respect and love... hah i've recently ran away, been kicked out for skipping SO much school, and have come home with a suspension...this is all one HUGE slap in the face, how fuckin real weed is, i've never even considered it a drug untill now... fuck this it used to be my best friend... the whole time i was sitting in the office just crying i felt like i just wanted to light up a cig, which he took both full packs of mine and i wanted to smoke a fuckin bowl but he took that too and my weed... i was in trouble for distributing, even tho i didnt share her name (girl you are one of my best friends and i would do almost anything to keep your ass out of any trouble. i love you dear. haha i'll ALWAYS rememeber this as one of the best mistakes.... it was almost worth it)... i'm honestly mentaly addicted to the high, it completes me and makes me so happy... i dont know how to stop when its in front of me every day...so officially i am a non weed smoker and a safe cigarette smoker (cause we all know i cant stop that), a full time out of school student who will be on house arrest pretty much for the rest of my life....good thing florida is coming up i need a vacation and a drug free one hah... kinda.... w/e this fucking sucks and i hate school and life as of now...
fuck this
anna your my best friend in the whole entire world i would die for you im sorry about averything thats happening lately dont replace me while im gone..hah i might have to kill you if your sittin at rels lunch table when i get back... i love you with all my heart you are my world and the only thing i thought about that whole time i was in there was how bad i didnt want them to know you were my friend so that you didnt get searched either... your the smart one tho and probably had nothing on you, but still... better safe then sorry... im here for you thru anything and im always going to be.... i love you more then life itself....
your nothing but a reason to live
twenty years from now i am gonna look back,
and remember that you were that one person
who could turn every frown into a smile in a
few simple words. that person who lifted my
head when i was losing faith in myself. that
one person who carried tears on her shoulders
after every fight, every break up, every death.
that one person who always knew what i was
feeling by the look on my face. that one person
who accepted who i was when everyone else
laughed in my face. that one person that
accepted every decision i made believing that
id make the right decisions. that one person who
knew who i really was. that one person that made
the biggest difference in my life. my best friend.
So we bottled and shelved all our regrets
Let them ferment and came back to our senses
Drove back home and slept a few days
Woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be
We'll get over it
Sad, strong, safe and sober
We'll move forward
And know where we went wrong
But "you can't go home again."
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