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its been a very long time since i have had, or more like made the time to sit down and do something i truly enjoy. It involves my favorite seat in the shop, watching the trains and cars go by admist the soothing pale sunset tonight. Typically I'd be enjoying a wonderful cup of coffee, however I am going to try to switch from coffee everyday to Tea every day, and well coffee on the occasion. It shall be interesting, of that I am already aware.
I have nothing of great pertinent interest to talk about. No great complaints, other than the usual lonliness and longing for some lounge time with people that are all over 500 miles away. I still
miss many things, But have been fortunate enough to find a few great people up here with whom i'm proud make up my university family here.
Its 5pm on a saturday evening here, and i sit alone. To an extent I love it, its my time. But it almost makes me feel like there's something wrong, something missing. Its the saturday night before classes start, and I sit here alone waiting for the boys to call to go out to diner. Boys aren't like girls in how we can all just hang around all day at eachothers places. I can still count on one hand how many times i've had people over, actually sad. My short hair makes me sad too. I miss my long golden locks at time, this short mob is just blaaahhhhhhh.
But its a new year. Time to buckle back down. I want to ditch the image of me being this blonde whose daddy has paved the atc road for her, cause well he hasn't in the slightest bit. By april I would like to be able to wear a dress that i wore 4 years ago. I'm close, but not quite, it'd be even nicer if i could wear it to a dance... but i'm pushing asking for that. I need to work on money management a lot better. Right now its really rough, i have nothing cause of my speeding ticket. But i would like to pay off my credit card stuff and save for the Bahama's. I'm also not turing 22 this year. So wish me a 21.2 birthday. I also will not give in to moving back home into my house. I just can't let myself do that at this point in my life, it would be detrimental. I like my life out of my house, so i will work my ass off 7 days a week, just to walk into a house of friends, and not one of a whiney little brother and his girlfiend all over him with a yelling mother and a dad that will just take us out to eat cause no one is cooking.
so it should be an interesting semester. the last final hooray. lets see how i survive!