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If i could, and maybe i should.....
throw away my tv, or at least not have cable
only allow myself to go to educational and informational websites
read at least one book a week that is not related to school
give away the things i don't need anymore
simplify my life
stop being excessive
figure out what it is i want out of this time here and get it damnit
save
stop holding back
make an impact
have a routine rather than a schedule
driving past the high school downtown today i realized that less than four years ago i was in the same spot. living the day to day meaningless sports and ap classes life. It takes so much to look back four years ago and think of where I thought i saw myself at this present point in time. The only part of it I got right was that I knew i would be addictd to coffee shops and coffee for that matter. For the most part I can only say it went and i went with it, or well against it. But I can't say I have learned the greatest of things that I think I thought I would find. I didn't picture myself sitting around dreading going home tonight because its so quiet. Or studying something like aviation law (which makes me want to poke my eyes out with tiger claws) I actually thought that majors like biology and anthropology could take you places. I thought I'd have my best friends and we'd be in some apartment flat having study parties and pizza pigout nights instead of studying. Or those all night cram sessions with all your friends even though no one is studying the same thing. I thought i'd have some wide base of really cool knowledge in something i was passionate about. Maybe even have dated. Hosted a few parties. Traveled on some crazy spring break with friends trip. I think that after college you should at least feel that you can solve at least one of the worlds problems. Or at least your own, not have college lead you down the more bewildered road than you were already riding down. College pretty much is just highschool without your parents waking you up if you are lucky enough. The girls are still bitchy and arogant towards those who are less or more pretty. The boys still don't seem to know what they want yet. And both would rather just get drunk on the weekends than do real productive things like read a novel and wonder why someone somewhere thinks its so great. And the worst part about it, I think i'm still guilty of it.
throw away my tv, or at least not have cable
only allow myself to go to educational and informational websites
read at least one book a week that is not related to school
give away the things i don't need anymore
simplify my life
stop being excessive
figure out what it is i want out of this time here and get it damnit
save
stop holding back
make an impact
have a routine rather than a schedule
driving past the high school downtown today i realized that less than four years ago i was in the same spot. living the day to day meaningless sports and ap classes life. It takes so much to look back four years ago and think of where I thought i saw myself at this present point in time. The only part of it I got right was that I knew i would be addictd to coffee shops and coffee for that matter. For the most part I can only say it went and i went with it, or well against it. But I can't say I have learned the greatest of things that I think I thought I would find. I didn't picture myself sitting around dreading going home tonight because its so quiet. Or studying something like aviation law (which makes me want to poke my eyes out with tiger claws) I actually thought that majors like biology and anthropology could take you places. I thought I'd have my best friends and we'd be in some apartment flat having study parties and pizza pigout nights instead of studying. Or those all night cram sessions with all your friends even though no one is studying the same thing. I thought i'd have some wide base of really cool knowledge in something i was passionate about. Maybe even have dated. Hosted a few parties. Traveled on some crazy spring break with friends trip. I think that after college you should at least feel that you can solve at least one of the worlds problems. Or at least your own, not have college lead you down the more bewildered road than you were already riding down. College pretty much is just highschool without your parents waking you up if you are lucky enough. The girls are still bitchy and arogant towards those who are less or more pretty. The boys still don't seem to know what they want yet. And both would rather just get drunk on the weekends than do real productive things like read a novel and wonder why someone somewhere thinks its so great. And the worst part about it, I think i'm still guilty of it.