A sad truth
So yes, it is now clearly apparent that it is a good thing Dillon is no longer in my life, because he has clearly turned himself into a train wreck. He smoked himself stupid this weekend, and finds nothing wrong with it, so I'm glad I don't have that in my life. After what I've seen happen to Jake and my cousin, I can only hope that he learns quickly, but I'm done with the situation. I've got a wonderful person by the name of Justin Socha in my life, who is amazing in every facet of the word. We aren't "together" for the moment, but it feels as though it certainly is headed that way. It can't very well stay where its at, at the moment. I just cannot believe that dillon's become so stupid to do that, especially because he was so against it all. Luke even said he feels sad, like he lost his best friend. Its sad, really really sad. I'm lucky that I'm not involved, someone was looking out for me with that one. I care about dillon, but i cannot see us ever getting back together at this point because the issues of trust, and passion are completely gone. I feel something so strong in my heart for myself suddenly, and that is more important than anything else anyone could offer. Justin's been amazing, but he doesn't run my life, nor does he have a sever impact on it. Its wonderful to have him around, but if it doesn't work out, there isn't much lost either. I am going to see Porto play at the Hawks Nest at the University of Hartford tonight, and I'm looking forward to it immensley. I am extremely happy, even though i'm quite tired. I hope for dillon, but that is all i can do, and all i'm willing to do for him. I deserve better than a stoner for a boyfriend, and I have better.