I feel it all.
So I have this cousin, and I love her more than life itself. But sometimes, I get really scared for her.
I went through shit when I was a teenager (not toooo long ago bythway) and she is so similar to me it's crazy. and I know her and her home environment so I knew that she was going to go through the same things, it was just inevitable. But for some reason I didn't think that hers would get horribly bad.
She is like me in so many ways, but she is more extreme than me. I tried making a list of the differences but I don't want to put it down in words. I worry about her a lot because she is so much more succeptible to bad influence. Maybe because I am stronger willed, or maybe because I saw people act a fool and I refused to be them. But in a small town where if you are different, it's not a good thing, she has to do what they do or something like that.
But I know that she can be so much more than she probably thinks that she could be. I talk to her about anything. she isn't my cousin, she is me. my blood. I just don't want her to throw her life away for stupid shit, stupid people and stupid choices. There is only so much that I can tell her about what I went through and hope she makes the right decisions.
I know my life wasn't horrible to the point of no return, but when you're 15 and alone, you feel like it can't get worse or better. But I know that she has to make her own decisions and her own mistakes, but I just am scared that her mistakes will also be her downfall. she is a person who follows her heart, I follow my head. that's why I'm kind of scared for her. I just want her to be okay. and to figure it all out.
I went through shit when I was a teenager (not toooo long ago bythway) and she is so similar to me it's crazy. and I know her and her home environment so I knew that she was going to go through the same things, it was just inevitable. But for some reason I didn't think that hers would get horribly bad.
She is like me in so many ways, but she is more extreme than me. I tried making a list of the differences but I don't want to put it down in words. I worry about her a lot because she is so much more succeptible to bad influence. Maybe because I am stronger willed, or maybe because I saw people act a fool and I refused to be them. But in a small town where if you are different, it's not a good thing, she has to do what they do or something like that.
But I know that she can be so much more than she probably thinks that she could be. I talk to her about anything. she isn't my cousin, she is me. my blood. I just don't want her to throw her life away for stupid shit, stupid people and stupid choices. There is only so much that I can tell her about what I went through and hope she makes the right decisions.
I know my life wasn't horrible to the point of no return, but when you're 15 and alone, you feel like it can't get worse or better. But I know that she has to make her own decisions and her own mistakes, but I just am scared that her mistakes will also be her downfall. she is a person who follows her heart, I follow my head. that's why I'm kind of scared for her. I just want her to be okay. and to figure it all out.