wasted grace

[jybeliever]

I was napping, which seems to happen... a lot. lol

so I had a dream, which also seems to happen a lot. But the thing was it was like I was starring in every role of my dream. There was a boyfriend and a girlfriend and I was both of them and neither of them at the same time. Anyways, they were upstairs in this attic type thing and they had just gotten over a fight or something. And it was a pretty cool attic. It was like a tower, and the room was circular and it was painted dark blue and had a cone shaped roof with twinkling stars so it was like you were lying underneath the stars even though you weren't. whoa, sidetracked.

So then the boy character was telling the girl, I love you so much.
boy: I love you so much
girl: I don't
boy: but I love you and I need you
girl: I don't love you and I don't need you.
boy: what the fuck is wrong with you?
girl: I hate you and you hate me. That's it. realize it.
boy: you're fucked. what the fuck does that mean.
girl: I.hate.you.
boy: fuck that then. I'm gone. I can't believe you would do this to me
*boy starts to leave, girl comes crawling out of the atticy space and puts her hand on his arm*
girl: babe, do you hate me?
boy: yes
girl: do you need me?
boy: no
girl: can you live without me?
boy: yes.
girl: well I can't. I'll love you even if you hate me, and I'll need you even if you don't need me and I can't live without you even if you can live without me. Do you know how I feel?
boy: yeah, yeah I do.
girl: Then tell me this once in awhile you asshole.

then I woke up.
fucking dreams.
sigh.

smile pretty